Friday, September 3, 2010

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Sunday, August 29, 2010

I've made my mind not to go to the Mooncake Festive in my school.

Why should I go and make myself suffer? Looking at them performing whilst you can't and you can only cheer for them as one of the tiny crowd.

Yes, I am pissed when I know everyone is going to perform during that day, but I'm more mad at myself. I can only blame myself for not having the time and chance to practice and perform with them. But it also broke my heart to know that they all were performing. I know that they don't have the need to quit the performance when someone can't make it, but I secretly hope they will. Bah, now I know that it's 100% that they won't quit.

Some of you my ask what is wrong with me? Why am I upset over such minor things? Yes, this is minor and I know I shouldn't make such a big deal out of it. But I just couldn't help myself. Imagine the gang of friends you used to hang out with and do everything together, and know everything just changed.

I know I'm usually or always the left out during outings or activities, I have my reasons and I don't like that position I'm in. I want to hang out with you guys, but sometimes there's just something in between that I couldn't go out anymore.

I hate the feeling of being left out, but that's the feeling that have accompanied me throughtout my childhood days and until now. Imagine you see people laughing and sharing with you their happy moments without you, how would you feel? You can only smile and laugh back in return and give positive feedbacks about the memories and activities without you in it.

I know I'm also quite a hot-tempered person and I used to get angry quite often and easily during outings and I sincerely appologize to whom I've hurt in the past. I always tell myself to cool down but sometimes I just can't stop myself from doing so. I got irratited by some of you sometimes when you're bitchy, but when you're good, I have no harsh feelings towards you.

I doubt you'll know that anyway, because you have your own new friends already. Thank you for letting me know that I can't rely on you all forever. And thank you once more, for letting me realise that I do have some good friends around me. It's so funny the humans used to ignore people that really care for you, huh?

Anyway, it make me more aware that I shouldn't just stick to you guys only. Yes, you all are great friends to hang out with but I should treat myself with more respect and intergrity. I wouldn't need to just stick behind you, I can have my own friends. Thank you for letting my realise that I'm worth it too. (: although I learnt this lesson throught the hard way.


Time for some happy post! Watched Vampire Sucks today, and gosh I love it! But too bad I gotta watch it alone. ): It's like a parody version of Twilight Saga. The settings is the same, I think. And even the names are almost similar!

Edward Cullen vs Edward Sullen ( I think Edward Sullen is hotter than Cullen )
Bella Swan vs Becca Crane ( I still prefer Bella Swan! )
Jacob Black vs Jacob White

I mean the script writer just changed some of the dialogues and add some funny lines in it because the others is almost the same as Twilight.

I think it's worth to watch it but I don't think it'll work out for those no-nonsense people. (:

Sunday, August 22, 2010

Ok, I know I haven't update my blog like for quite some time. Even my laptop doesn't auto sign me in to blogger.com anymore. :x I'm not quite up to blogging now, maybe I'm using my phone to online most of the time? It's more convenient actually, onlining via phone. So the usual website I would go is just facebook and twitter. (:

Just finished our exam this week and I don't wanna talk anything about it.

Went out with hunnie Vivien today and I had loads of fun! Okay, I shall upload some pics since I haven't done it in a long long time! :D Sorry for the shitty quality, because some I took it off video and my handphone is only 3.2 megapixels and most of the photo is in the darkness. :P
Anyway, most of the KTV pictures are almost the same. Tee hee~~









We went around shopping then head straight to the cinema to watch love in disguise. I admit I don't really fancy Lee Hom before but after the movie I think he's quite okay after all. :P It's a nice movie anyway. (:



Then we went to Popular to kill some time whilst Vivien brough @dd magazine. When we walk in I heard a song that is sung by Lee Hom, and when I double-confirm with Vivien, she said I don't know. What kind of fan is this? xD


Brought this from MiniToons! Vivien and I both brought it. Talking about this remind me of a photo that was taken long agooooooo.


Vivien = Blue
Elaine = Black
Me = Pink!!! :D
Joan = White ( but not here :x )
Later on Joan switched colours with Elaine so that we can match back the colours with our phone colour! So ngam right? Elaine has a white phone whereas Joan has a black one and I have a pink one whereas Vivien has a blue phone!


"WE HAVE BEEN FRIENDS TOGETHER IN SUNSHINES AND IN SHADES"
Thank you for giving me this, Vivien! Love ya! Muacks! Tee hee~~


The only nice photo of me. :P Too bad la, I'm not pretty so very hard to find a pretty picture! Haha~


I think this glasses is so damn cool! There's loads more in the shop but I don't dare to try everyone and snap pictures with it. I don't wanna get kicked out from the shop! :P


Last but not least, our only photo taken together. ):


That's all for today. Bye bye!

Saturday, July 31, 2010

I broke down when I came back to my home. All the emotions, the frustration just got to me and I just starting sobbing and crying.

Why? Why is it so hard to get a friend that really understand? Why?

Do you know that I always felt that I'm not worthy when I'm with you? Somehow you just give me the feeling that I'm not worthy. Yes, I'm not as smart as you. Yes, I don't have your talent.

I've been sobbing and crying and asking myself why. Why why why? Those are the questions that I can't asnwer. Am I really that unworthy? Am I really that bad? Don't I deserve this?

I felt like I'm a rubbish. You guys come and find me when you need my help. That's what I felt. I felt like I'm a tool to you, a tool to get what you want.

I wish I can be stronger and not cry everytime when a problem pops out. But I'm just that weak. I can bear to face you any longer because I don't even know how to talk properly to you without feeling frustration.

Yes, I'm pissed off at school. But now, all I feel like it's my fault, you know? it's me. It's me. I'm dissapointed with myself. Why must I let my anger control me? I am mad when I found out that you kinda forget about me and didn't inform me. I felt left out, you know? How would you feel if you're in my shoes?

The feeling of being left out is not good. It sucks. I've been having this feeling since primary. I thought that I will never have this feeling again when I met you. But I still have that in me. That bitter side of me. That feeling is like in my blood already. I wanna it to get lost, but I can't.

I felt so useless, I felt left out.

I don't think that you'll understand what I'm feeling now.

Friday, July 23, 2010

I pray to god the He will let me finish typing this post without re-writing it again and again.
I made myself to blog at least once a week but being the usual lazy me, I will post posts without pictures! :D Go to http://www.facebook.com/sotseine for pictures! But I seldom update my pictures album because I’m too lazy!!!!!!!

School is still okay. Same pattern everyday. I skipped school on Wednesday because I over slept. :x Okay, wanna know the truth? Actually I woke up around 6.50am realising that I was late. Then I think to myself:"Oh shit! I have less than 10 minutes to prepare everything!" So I plonked myself back to my fluffy pillow while cuddling sottie and go back to my dreamland. I did had a good dream that morning! Fuiyohhh~~~ Can I have that dream again? Too bad it's just a dream. >.<

Okay, why didn’t I get to know them better earlier because they’re so fun to be with! They’re Yean yan, Hwei Yee and Prashanya! It’s sooooo funny to be with them. On Tuesday, Yean yan, Prashanya and I even planned to tweet Justin Bieber together! This is because we found out that he usually retweet his fan’s tweets so we decided to give it a shot but the results is he never reply. :P Kinda guessed that this will be it. How nice if he reply us right? So we joked around that he might be country-ist and only fancied European countries but not Asian countries. :P Sorry if I pissed some of his die-hard fans but we were just fooling around when we make that comment.

It’s a total waste of time that we went school today. No lessons were taught and I’m serious!! Scroll down to see the activities for today!!

Sej – teacher was absent. Yes!!

Bm – teacher was absent too!! Wohooo~ We’re over the moon!!

Sivik – was asked to do our own things and everyone kinda transformed to animals when we were giving opinions on where to go for our class trip. I didn’t even know the final decision because I was busy throwing paper balls here and there. Someone kept aiming for butt but I don’t know who. I know my butt is sexaayyyy and hot!!!! :P

-recess-

Moral – went to the library to finish up our folio but being the usual lazy me I went over to Yean yan, Prashanya and Hwei yee’s table to chit-chat with them. Imagine after 7 months only I start talking to them?? And they’re sitting just in front of me in the class. -.- wow, I’m really slow at making friends! Then we started to discuss of how to drag our English teacher’s time so that she won’t teach us.

English – plan succeed!! We started singing birthday song when she walked in and you can see it from her expression that she’s shocked. It’s actually Hwei yee’s birthday today! (: We kept repeating the birthday song and somehow our class started to sing random songs. Kenneth, Richard, Kang Ying and Kai Chean were even “invited” to dance in front of the class! It’s so hilarious! I’m loving my classmates more and more now! <3 My personal favorite part is whenever someone step in our class, we’ll start to sing birthday song like those shop censor? So Bryan kept stepping in and out so we were like Hap, Hap, Hap….!! :D

After english? Time to go home!!

I was pretty lucky that my name was not jotted down when there was spot check this morning. My nails and fringe were pretty long and I was so lucky when I was not caught by prefets! *phew* My fringe were so long that it kept poking my eyes until it was damn itchy. So haircut tomorroe after school activities! <3 Dreading for it now. I won’t want to risk to get caught the next spot check. And whilst we were in the library, I saw prefects walking in our class and they’re spot checking our bags. I was lucky, again that my friend’s highlighter which was on my table was not confistigated. My friend checked my table so thank youuuuu! (:

Oh ya, last but not least, congratz to Meng Jiun for his novel getting in the Selangor state contest. I regret so much for not participating although I finished writing mine. :x Is it worth it to not cut short my story because mine was a bit too long. Is it worth it?????? To those who are interested in my story, here's the link!!
http://sotseine.blogspot.com/2010_03_19_archive.html

~Tata~
Okay, I give up! I re-typed this post for 4 freaking times and it doesn't work out. ): Not my fault, blame blogger.com! Screw u!

Friday, July 16, 2010

Okay, I blogged to pass my time while waiting for the moment of getting a chance to win the MTV World Stage tickets. :x Wish me luck ya?

For the first time in my life, I fell asleep while watching the tele. I mean, this is just not me! I was too tired of sleeping late last night and waking up early today. It's Facebook's fault! Blame it!!! I literally fell asleep while watching The Biggest Loser Australia Season 2 and I fell asleep during the most exciting part. -.- So I didn't get to know which team loses the weigh-in and I can't watch the repeat because I AM watching the repeat.

Sometimes I just can't stand myself. Why must I be so lazy? Why can't I study like other people? Why can't I stop myself from feeling sleepy whenever I open my books and tried to study? I never suceed studying without falling asleep on my books. I hate myself so much when I do that! I only started to regret for not studying more when I got back my suckish results but beforehand, I don't have the motivation to get my ass of the laptop and start studying. ):

Maybe I should take all my books to the Garden Terrace's Office and study? Well, there's air-cond there and there's no handphone/laptop to distract me. Nah, I'll surely fall asleep as well, or maybe I'll day-dream while looking out the windows and enjoy the scenary. Exam is exactly a month away and I have not prepared. I don't understand all my sciences subjects. I don't know what is coming out from teachers mouth! All I know is their mouth is moving non stop and I have no idea what are they talking about. Being in the tuition is the same case too! For physics is more okay for me because I at least understand what he is talking about. But I just don't know how to do his homework when I'm at home. Chemistry is the worst! I don't even understand what is the tuition teacher talking about! Biology is the worst of the lot! I never attend tuition for that because I think I still can handle it, and obviously I can't but I never had tuition for that too. I'm lazy to go to tuitions!!!!!!

What is wrong with me, dude? Wake up wake up!!!! There's no such year as honeymoon year!!!

BTW, I wanna thank Hanley Fong again for helping me to spot junior and the bee for the MTV World Stage tickets! Thank you! (:

Thursday, July 15, 2010

Heya! I think I have left my bloggie dead for quite some time. Too bad! My results sucks so no laptop! ): Oh ya, before I forget, the lazy bum bum Chen Wei Seine a.k.a sotseine has finally made up her mind to open up a facebook account after being laugh by Mr.Lee numerous time for being outdated. -.- So here's my link and add me up if I left you out ya?

Hmmm.... Let's see. Okay, on 2-4th July, I went to a camp in FRIM, Kepong. The experience is urm, I'm trying to find the suitable word but failed. In simple, it's fun although it's dirty. I've been extremely scared of leece biting me before I went to the camp and luckily, no leech bite for me! I'm such a lucky girl! :P And I'm lucky enough again to be not chosen for the night patrol! Imagine my luck! Should have gotten myself a lottery ticket or something, maybe I might win! Met some new friends there and we actually have our little secrets of our own after we came back from the camp. Hui Sin,Twins, Ee Cheng, Vivien and I have our little secret admirer after the camp. We're like crazy hunting for our idols in school and talking about them during recess. We'll brag and say who walk past us and who did we saw and lots more. I know it sounds childish but we had tons of fun from it. (: I think it's a bitter-sweet memory that I'll definitely remember when I'm old next time. How come it's bitter? Try and ask me in person! ;) But I don't think I'm gonna tell you! Hahahaha~

Then we had a suprise party for both Vivien and Ee Cheng! (: They sure got a shock from it! I enjoyes myself once again. I know I'm skipping all the details but I don't think I have the mood to blog it all out.

Haven't got back my result slip back. :x I want it I want it I want it! Okay, time to stop blogging and time for face-booking! Gosh, I've just open my account for 2 days and I'm already addicted to it? Damn those people that made me open-ed it. xD

Tata~ *I miss ou xiang~*

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Did my aural test and teacher kept laughing at me when I said these line :-
"Aw man! I'm so hungry! I've not eaten in three whole days!"
"Books? What are books? I wonder if they are delicious?"

-I think she kept laughing because I use to eat in class and there's no way that I can survive if I haven't eat in three whole days! I think I'll drop dead after the 1st half day. :x

The worst part is, for literature, teacher had 4 people out to "perform" the Gulp and Gasp drama.
Richard-Lord Septic
Hong Chun - Crouch
Kang Ying - Percy
Rose - Me! T_T

Imagine having to say "I love you" to Kang Ying! The whole class was laughing like mad! T_T
and in such coincedence, Rose had to say the same line "I've not eaten in 3 days!" and I broke into giggles. Teacher kept laughing too. Poor me having to starve for 6 days altogether.

I even had to let Kang Ying touch my hand! :0 I kept laughing whenever I have lines that need me to express my affection towards Percy. But I can't help myself when I need to repeat the lines to Kang Ying! My cheeks were so tired after the drama from laughing and laughing and laughing! I'm starting to love school already! <3

*I need to clarify that it is nothing personal about Kang Ying, kay?*

How nice if school is all about presenting drama, drama and drama? No more reports! No more essays! Everything is just drama! Bah, I'm not in drama school~


Sunday, June 20, 2010

I've actually done 2 blog posts earlier but didn't publish it. :P Gonna save it for times that I have no idea or no mood to blog. Tee hee

Just got back from my date with hunnie on Sunway! Damn tired now but very satisfied. Maybe I'll sleep with a wide wide smile on my face tonight. Haha~ Never thought my mom will let me out because school starts tomorrow and it's Father's Day today. Felt so bad for ditching my dad at home whilst I'm having fun outside! :P

Guess who's my hunnie? It's Vivien!!
Her mom came by to my house around 9am and said hi to both my parents whilst poor Puggy was lock up in the backyard because Vivien is scared of her! Then wwnt back to Vivien's house to fetch her sis, Natalie and her friend.

First thing when we reached there was to buy tickets for movie! (: Watched Nanny McPhee and the Big Bang. Won't say that the show is awesome but it's definitely worth watching! I love it when she says her name is Nanny McPhee spelt with a small c and big P! <3



Then walked to J-Co Doughnuts as breakfast :P I know I know, what an unhealthy choice right? But we have only limited time to live so why not make good use of your time to eat something that you like? (: After breakfast, we hit to AmpSquare! Finally I can ditch RedBox because I found another better one. Tee hee~ Prices are cheaper, time period are longer, the only thing is the admin's attitude. Both Vivien and I felt like slapping her hard in her face. How can she be so rude to customers??!!


We both didn't brought our I/C so we borrowed Natalie's for registeration and we were in Room11 whilst Natalie and her friends are on Room13. My mom kept telling me that their food are awful but I think it's not bad! Vivien and I sang and sang and sang until we were both out of breathe. We were jumping around on the sofas and the waiter/waitress don't even ask you to get down from the sofa like what they do in RedBox! This is amazing! Maybe 9 out of 10 customers do this so they were immuned to it? Vivien got excited all over when she got to know the real meaning of If you seek Amy by Britney Spears. (: Sometimes we doesn't sing, we SHOUT! Lolx We were so high at that time! We started the session with Lady Gaga's Bad Romance and ended with that song too! Hahahahaha

After that, went straight to the cinema and watch our movie. Didn't choose Sex and the City 2 because it's rated as 18 and all important scenes were cut. So why waste Rm13 bucks to see cut edition? I rather buy DVD and watch it at home. :P I wanna watch Karate Kid but the timing is not right. ): So the only choice left is Nanny McPhee. Anyway, that show is highly recommended by Jo because she watched it already in Aus. It seems that this is the 2nd show and the 1st one is nicer.

After movies, it's time to go home. ): Time flies when I'm with my hunnie. T_T No camwhore shots because we were rushing here then rush there. ;) We were two very busy people! xD

Tata~ Going to have my dinner then watch tonight's Oprah because she's interviewing the casts of Glee!! <3>

Sunday, June 13, 2010

Feels good to know that there's actually people reading my blog! It not be a massive number, but it still feels good to know that there's someone supporting you somewhere. And I actually found out that my readers are not only from Malaysia but some are from Singapore and Australia! I don't think Jo is the one because she doesn't even know my blog link. :P

Life has been shitty to me for the past few months and I feel like I'm going to have a breakdown AGAIN sometime. =X It's just that the pressure is building up in me and I have nowhere to release it out. How nice if you can release your stress by farting or burping. Then no one in this world will have stress, right?

Yea, I should take it easy and maybe breathe in some air? There's nothing I could do, you know? I felt that someday I will suffocate by all this pressure around me. If life is just about all this, I don't really know what's the real reason people should live. I know I'm being negative, but isn't life suppose to be happy and colourful? But mine is just grey, grey and grey.

I actually felt calmer looking at the rain drops dropping down. I wanna stand in the middle of the road and let the rain drops clear my mind. But I didn't. I'm already sick for nearly 3 weeks and I wanna get better. Maybe I need a physcologist to help me? Nah, talking doesn't even help right now. I don't even know what's bothering me right now. Every lil thing could trigger my emotions now, I rarely talk at home now, which is a massive change in me. How could I, Chen Wei Seine not talk? It's just not right. = Crying myself to sleep seems like a daily routine to me now. How I wish everything would just go away. Maybe I should learn some magic to make it all vanish? I just want to lead a life that everyone 16 years old teenager should have.

Even watching comedy shows couldn't make me laugh now. I don't wanna grow up and become some mental physco, but I know if I keep on burdening myself like that, I will somehow become one. Maybe I should just take a break from everything? But how is that going to work out? So eventually my happiest time of all is when I'm sleeping, I can actually breathe smoothly without worrying what's going to happen the next minute. I can actually relax by then. I refuse to get up every morning because I know what is ahead of me, but I need to pull myself together and just get my ass of my bed. If I'm not there for her, who will? So can I sleep forever like Sleeping Beauty and wait for my prince to appear? Nah, I wouldn't need a prince to come, I just need my problem to go away, that's all. Is all this too much to hope for?

Thursday, June 10, 2010

Let's see when's my last update.... Oopsie, it's May 13! And it's 10 June today! Oh gosh, did I not update for nearly a month? I know I can be excused right? ;P We have exams, and Jocelyn got back from Aus so I spent all my time with her. =D I miss her so much now~
*I didn't even really study for my exams because I was too busy spending my time with Jo! :P*

I miss bullying her and I miss talking to her before I go to sleep. We slept in the same room for the past one month and she took my bed so I conquer the wooden floor. xD We talk non-stop before going to sleep. I love to bully her by snatching both of her blankets. She always complain that my room is very cold, that's why she has a comforter and a blanket. -.- How on earth is she going to survive during winter? The answer is, her electric blanket! Lolx

Everytime when we go out shopping, she would ask me to sit on my bed with my eyes close so that she could help me make-up. When I'm still a little girl, she would pleat my hair because I have a long long long hair last time. She would treat me like a barbie doll and now she still do! Except she doesn't touch my frizzy hair now. :P We would prank each other up by putting horrible make-up colours on each other and we'll have a good hard laugh.

Jo is so going to kill me when she sees this pictures. :P
But nevermind, it's to entertain ya' all!



Okay, she said that this picture make her look like a rock star! *laughing + rolling on the floor!*

Why does happy times fly faster than usual? How I wish it could be October the next day so that I could play with her again. :X

Hmm... Went to The Mines one day to watch Shrek Forever After for free! Tee hee~ Somehow I don't know how my dad manage to get 2 tickets so he and I are going to watch it. Couldn't stop smiling~



My dad actually said that he looked like a drunktard! :P He said it, not me!

See, I'm not lying! We really got it for free! I even snap a shot of the ticket to prove it. Tee hee


And I cried :( I cried while watching cartoon! OMG, something is seriously wrong with me. :X And my dad kept teasing me for that. Hmph!

I think you should have noticed that I'm having short hair in the above photos. If you don't, it's okay, you can have a eye check-up for free in any of the optical shop :) But if you aren't free, then you can just scroll down to see more of my pictures! :P
*but don't scroll down when you're drinking/eating! You may have blood on your computer/laptop screen then*




Oh ya! I almost forgot! Jo wasn't very fond of puggy when we bought her back. She never see her before, but based on the photos we sent to Jo, she doesn't really adore Puggy. But after spending sometime with Puggy, Jo is actually more attached to my dog than us! Can you actually imagine that? Everytime she sms-ed us now will be based on Puggy only :( She even made her a shirt!


Seriously, she sew that shirt for Puggy. Oh ya, Puggy loves pink, just like me! So we chose a hellp kitty cloth for her. :P

Celebrated our parents 25th wedding anniversary in T.G.I Friday. :) Jo and I spent around 30 minutes naked in my room to decorate their cards. Actually we're planning to bath, but we just remembered we haven't actually decorate nor write messages in the cards yet, so we did that without bothering to put on our clothes :P Oh ya, we bath together too! Tee hee ;) I help you scrub your back you help me scrub my back. Wakakaka~



I took this in the toilet whilst waiting for Jes to finish writing the card in the toilet. -.- So pathetic right?



We bought our parents favorite ice-cream cake! Calories calories~


This is what happen when I took back T.G.I Friday's balloon. I tied it to Puggy's neck! Poor dog~



3rd badge of bird nestling beside Jes's air-cond compressor! It's not fair because only 2 badge of birds are nestling beside my air-cond compressor. Maybe Jes's place is smellier? xD Oh ya, the egg hatch and one of the baby bird flew into our house and hid behind our sofa. So our so-called detective dog keep snarling and barking belpw the sofa. Lol Lastly we asked the part-time maid to catch the bird and out it back to the nest.


My new laptop table from Ikea! Somemore is foldable! <3>


PHOTO OF THE DAY:

Puggy really knows how to find a spot to sleep right? Rest her head on top of my shoulder somemore. Tsk tsk

Recently I'm madly in love with HeadCoverz! We went there on one sunday afternoon and I don't feel like walking out of the shop anymore! I found one advertorial about this shop while scrolling on Cheesie's blog, so I asked my dad to bring me there and he said yes! [Advertorial here]
I was like a 3 year old child there, I can't stop myself from touching this wig then touvhing that wig again. :P I tried on clip-on fringe and a big curl brown-haired wig but I was too busy boasting my wig to Jo that I forgot to take picture :X The boss there is so kind that she help me find accesories for my wig and customers are allowed to try on as much wigs as you want! But I didn't buy the wig although I love it very much because I'm already long haired, so no use buy another long hair wig right? Somemore it's not that cheap~ So somehow I got a short hair wig from the net! Tee hee~

Tata~ Gotta continue with my korean drama! Cinderella Stepsister rocks!! <3
8 more episodes to go and I'm done with the drama!

Thursday, May 13, 2010


Last night, I followed my dad to the Hilton Hotel at Kuala Lumpur. His company bought a table and my dad was allowed to bring a partner to watch a Rock n' Roll musical that is adapted from Shakespeare's Macbeth. The show's name is 'From a jack to a king'. Last night was the premiere for the show and the tickets are more expensive, because half of it is for the charity. Anyway, my dad got them for free. Tee hee. Since my mom couldn't make it, and if we forfeit the ticket, my dad is suppose to pay RM500, I became the substitute. Good news or bad news?

We were suppose to leave our house at 5.30pm but I got back from the vet at 5pm. So I got to rush for everything! Imagine taking my shower to dressing up, I got only 30 minutes! Ended up, we left at 6.30pm. =) I put on the dress that I bought in Australia, and it's suppose to be my annual dinner's dress. I put it on and Jo force me to wear nothing inside! OMG! It feels so weird and empty! :S Imagine not wearing your bra and you go. Eee, it's so uncomfortable! And that's not the worst part, the worst part is, when you reach there, you see your dad's collegue, and you have to smile and smile and smile and smile! My cheeks feel like their going to have a muscle cramp!

We have a 4 course dinner and the food is ahem ahem, not that nice. I don't know la, but I personally don't really enjoy "rich man's" food, like abalone, scallop........ For the 4 course dinner, there's always leftover food in my plate. =p The nicest thing during the dinner is BREAD! Oh my gosh, I can assure you that the bread is better than the prawns, the salmon and all the food! The bread is so mouth-watering that I wish that I can have one now.

Aspiring but wimpish Eric Glamis wants to be a rock star but lacks the drive and guts until three witches take him under their control and make him their choice for fame. Eric proves to be a sensation on the drums and a knock-out on the guitar and is taken on by dubious rock impresario Duke Box who promptly renames Eric, Thane Cawdor! However, it's rock star Terry King - complete with Kawasaki motorbike and Elvis impersonations - who stands in Eric's way to stardom. So, spanner in hand, Eric makes a few adjustments to the wheels of Terry's motorbike and... "crash".... he becomes the new King and marries the love of his life Queenie, who just happens to be Terry's "ex"! Terry, though, isn't going to take all this lying down in his grave and returns to haunt Eric to the point where Joe Macduff, a cool American cop, arrests him after some thrilling musical duels.

The 9 UK casts are just so talented! They sing well and they can even perform multiple types of musical instruments. Okay, it's time to introduce them! I spent sooooo much time googling for their photos and informations instead of studying. Haha! I know the pictures below are a lil small but just bear with it!

PETER HELMER
"Joe Macduff"
( Guitar, keyboard, harmonica and percussion )



MATT DEVITT
"Duke Box" and also the director of this play!
( Guitar and drums )




STEVE SIMMONDS
"Terry King"
(Trumpet, drums and guitar )
I love it when he sang Tell Laura I Love Her *sniff sniff* He's already "dead" when he sang that to laura.


JANE MILLIGAN
"First Witch"
( Tenor/Alto saxophone, flute, drums and keyboards )
I actually thought she's a male when she stand beside me. She's so tall! And when she got up the stage and start talking, her voice is quite deep. But when she starts to sing, only then I realise that she's actually a female. -.-


KEVIN JONES
"Second Witch"
( Trombone, guitar, keyboards and drums )



SARAH WHITTUCK
"Third Witch"
(Alto Saxaphone and keyboards)
Her singing is a-w-e-s-o-m-e! She sang Ave Maria an octave higher than the other cast and it's so so so so so good!



GRANT DINWOODIE
"Eric Glamis"
( Guitar, harmonica, keyboards and drums )
Okay, this guy is seriously hawt! He even have kissing scenes with Ally Holmes "Queenie"!! =0





ALLY HOLMES
"Queenie"
(tenor saxophone, keyboards and drums )



MARIA LAWSON
"Laura"
(alto and tenor saxaphone and keyboards)
She's the girlfriend of Terry King!
I personally love the song that she sang I Have A Boyfriend and the song Terry when he died. Terry King even fetch her go round our tables using a bicycle when she's singing I Have A Boyfriend!

Ok, out of the 9 UK casts, the one I love most is "Laura" ( Maria Lawson ) and "Eric Glamis" ( Grant Dinwoodie )! I love their role and of course, their singing! =D The show is full of laughter and songs and cheering from the crowd. It's a memorable experience! Too bad that we're not allowed to take any photos. =( Everybody awe-d when Eric Glamis and Queenie kissed after their wedding when they finished singing Awe Maria.
Phew, they really sang quite a nuumber of songs!
They are :
-Dead End Street
-Money
-He'a a Rebel
-Blue Suede Shoes
-He's so Fine
-I Have A Boyfriend
-Let Me Wrap You In My Warm And Tender Love
-So You Wanna Be A Rock And Roll Star
-I Put A Spell On You
-There's A Bad Moon On The Rise
-Leader Of The Pack
-Terry
-From A Jack To A King
-Ave Maria
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-Little Queenie
-Shakin' All Over
-Tell Laura I Love Her
-Always Something There To Remind Me
-I Can't Stand The Rain
-Night Of Fear
-Nowhere To Run - Nowhere To Hide
-The Sun 'Aint Gonna Shine Anymore
-Crazy
-Sitting Watching Flowers In The Rain
-You Really Got Me
-Jailhouse Rock
-Go Johnny Go

And when we asked for encore, they sang Downtown and River Deep-Mountain High. I'm impressed that how the musical director and arranger can let the story line blends in with the lyrics of the song. And they didn't even change the lyrics.

This most be the first post that I've ever spent so much time writing it and googling infos. So you guys better finish reading ya? I really hope that there's a second chance for me to watch it again! <3


Wednesday, May 12, 2010

Sometimes, I wish that the time would stop flowing and the earth will stop orbiting. And sometimes, I wish that all of this is just a horrible dream.

I'm 16, yes, I know some have gone through this far more than I am. But I would still like to say that I can't handle this. I don't know what to expect next. The pain is so horrible that you wouldn't know it until you have gone through this yourself.

I weep and cry in my room but I just couldn't stop myself from doing so. I'm not that strong. I'm still just a little girl in the inside. I still am the one who laughs and crys. I always stay cheerful in front of you all, but in the inside, it's bitter. It feels like the bitterness is going to explode out any minutes. I dislike this kind of feeling, but I have to accept it.

Because of the unfaieness of the world, people have to accept the bitter feelings. I know what I'm going through now is not as much as hers, but I just don't know how to react, or even face her. I'm always cautious about my words, my expression, my everything. She's one of my dearest, and I don't wanna see her tear. It breaks my heart when she does.

Sometimes, I feel so useless. I can't help her ease the pain. All I can do is watch her from behind, and give her encouragement. But other than that, there's nothing I can do. I'm sick of weeping and crying in my room. I need a shoulder to lean on. I know I couldn't bother them anymore, they have far more stress than I am.

I wonder how did they manage to go thorugh all this? I know I can, I know she can, but can we just skip the process? Can we just proceed to the ending? Things are far more easier like this. Eyesight are blurred by the tears and the keyboard is wet because of the tears. But there nothing I can do. Nothing

I can just accept the fact that I can't help.

I need to just accept the fact that I'm always trying to ignore.

I need to grow up, even though I don't want to. Reality is always cruel.

I also need to accept the fact that I'm no more living in the fairy tale world that I'm always living in.

Saturday, April 17, 2010

Will definitely blog lessly on this page, because I've already found another page for me to blog more privately. Things that are far more public, maybe I'll blog it out here, but who knows? Maybe I'll choose to ignoret this blog until all of you abondon this page and I'll swap all my private post up here.



*My life is in a freaking mess right now*

*I had too much information in one day that I don't really wanna know*

Saturday, March 27, 2010

Firstly, I would like to apologize for not blogging for a while. Right, my besties will know why and for those who doesn't know why, too bad lo!

I would like to declare here that you have no rights to say that I'm too happy or whatever shitty things you're trying to say. What do you expect me to do? Cry in front you every single second to show how depressed I am? I'm so sorry, but my tears is for myself, not for proving to people like you. I know when I can show my true feelings and when I should gear myself up and be bubbly like usual. I don't need you to remind me of how to be myself! If you're really that free, why don't you sort out your own life first? I seriously think that my life right now is better than yours like about a million times!

Secondly, I would like to thank my friends for making such a wonderful gift! Many thanks to them! Sometimes I do wonder, why friends can treat us better then our own family do? Is it because we don't see each other 24/7 or it is because we can choose our friends?

There are too much things that I wanna blurt it out to feel better but I know I can't do it here. Thanks for those who are willing to hear me talk! =)

Will end this post short and I got my results back today. Not bad, but not still satisfied.

Tata~

Monday, March 22, 2010

Finally there's some good news after all the bad ones.

We have 3 of our papers back, which is:
-Additional Mathematics
-Physics
-Biology

And I got A for those 3 subjects! (2As and 1A-)
Freaking happy and excited! I mean like, I'm half expecting to fail my Additional Mathematics but it turns out to be A!!!!! Maybe God pity me and gave me some good news instead of bad news? Who knows, right? Actually passing up my workbook really helps a lot. You just need to pass up the workbook which is completed on certain chapters, and teacher will give you 6 marks. But the 6 marks actually worth you 22 marks, I think. So without that 6 marks, I will not have the result that I'm having now.

I still regretted that I told teacher that she marked wrongly on my Physics paper. If add marks for me is like better, but I don't know what is on my mind that time and I told teacher that she marked 2 questions wrongly!
2 FREAKING QUESTIONS THAT CONSIST 5 FREAKING MARKS!!!!!
So, my marks went down from 78% to 73%. T___T
But nevermind, I still have A- and I'm still the top scorer in the class for physics.
Muahaha, I suddenly felt that I'm smarter than usual! Maybe the conversation with Jocelyn yesterday helps!

For Biology I got 80% and I'm quite satisfy with my marks actually! :)
There was one which is suppose to be cell, but I wrote tissue. -.-
Anothere one should by excretory system, but I got too excited when I saw the penis, and I wrote there male reproductive system. -.-x2
This teaches me a lesson to read and look at the picture/diagram/instructions carefully.

I'm still worried sick about my Pendidikan Moral and Sejarah. But I'm definitely looking forward to my Modern Mathematics paper!! Was aiming to score 100%. Bah, let's see whether I can make my dream come true. :P

So wish me luck for the other subjects ya?

Sunday, March 21, 2010

Stupid laptop stupid keyboard. I had this lappie for less than a month and now, it's keyboard went haywired. I mean like what kind of quality is that? And mind you, I type my essay with an external keyboard so don't say things such as you typed too much on that keyboard. Hello? Keyboard is for you to type!!!!!

Anyway, went to Kai Lee's sweet sixteen birthday yesterday. Was quite fun overall.
They had games such as musical chairs, musical box, riddle and lots more.
And I won a chocolate bar by answering the riddle correctly!

My tummy was aching since I came back home and I went to the toilet for numerous time from last night till just now! >.<
No idea why my tummy is aching.

Saturday, March 20, 2010

I can do the bow hair style!! <3
know it's outdated, but it's still fab! =P
Actually I wanna tie this to Kai Lee's birthday party, but Vivien says it's weird. ={

I just say I wanna slim down yesterday and guess what did I had for my breakfast today? BAK KUT TEH!!!

Regret like hell now! I feel like puking out everything now.

Since I have nothing to blog about, I shall blog out this interesting conversation that I had with this guy this morning.

During our msn conversation, * I edited some censored words!*
很高兴见到你们!says :
Hi

很高兴见到你们!just sent you a nudge.

sotseine says :
hi

很高兴见到你们!says :
how old are u ?

sotseine says :
get lost

很高兴见到你们!says :
?

sotseine says :
I

很高兴见到你们!says :
u now f**king with people?

sotseine says :
ASK

U
TO
GET
LOST
DOESN"T
MEAN
I"M
F**KING
WITH
PEOPLE!


很高兴见到你们!says :
ok
how old are u ?

sotseine says :
you don't know english is it
i asked you to get lost la

很高兴见到你们!says :
i age 22
u?

sotseine says :
3 years old

很高兴见到你们!says :
walau
i just ask u how old are you
then why u so angry?

sotseine says :
i where got angry
which part of u see i'm angry?

很高兴见到你们!says :
no
your chinese is better?
i want ask u something
about chinese
can?

sotseine says :
why ask me chinese need ask my age?

很高兴见到你们!says :
u know how to write essay?
no la
i want write an essay

sotseine says :
then write la

很高兴见到你们!says :
i dunno how to do
can u help me ?
u can write then send to me
can?

sotseine says :
why do i need to help u write le?

很高兴见到你们!says :
pls lo

sotseine says :
i got not enough time for myself dy, where got so much time help u write
somemore i dun even know u
-.-

很高兴见到你们!says :
lol
just help ma
lol
假如再有一次机会
write essay
so hard

sotseine says :
then dun write lo
-.-
u think i'm ur maid ah, help u do ur work
somemore i got no benefit also
u gimme 1000 usd la

很高兴见到你们!says :
lol
pls lo

sotseine says :
你神经病的!去哦又不认识你,干嘛要帮你啊?变态!

*blocked him from msn*

Oh ya, Meng Jiun first sentence of our converstion is :
~oh my god
~ur novel is damn damn awesome

^-^ I <3>.< Meng Jiun and I made a deal.
If I won the competition, I'll belanja him makan, if I lose then vice versa.
Because he's too confident that I'll win and I have no confident that I'll win. xD

Hui Sin and I keep sms-ing each other to see what are we going to wear tonight for Kai Lee's birthday party.
So I think sometimes going to big party is not that good, because
*Wear too nice people cooment you trying to act cute/attract guy's attention etc.
*Wear casually then people will comment that you don't respect the host for dressing too casual

So the conclusin for the day is
GO TO THE PARTY NAKED!! =D

Friday, March 19, 2010

匿名的好友

“哎,怎么又跳错舞步啊?”莫莉不悦地皱起眉头,嘀咕着。“奇怪了,怎么对面的马路停着一辆搬家公司的车啊?难不成对面那历史悠久的公寓终于有人搬进去住?可是,那公寓已经很旧耶,怎么还会有人穷到愿意住这种丑不啦叽的烂房子啊?对面那女孩的年龄看起来和我一样,有没有可能成为我的新同学呢?想一想,还是不可能吧?我在这所国中也待了三年,从来就没有同学转进或转出, 全都是老面孔,看了就讨厌!”即将开学,菲佣也烫好了校服,莫莉的假期作业也都完成了,脸上没来不及准备或作业未完成的焦急;烦的无非是因假期逝去的感伤,以及不想看见同学。

家境富裕,外貌甜美,成绩永远名列前茅的莫莉,最棘手的是人际关系。这种关系好像永远不变地再班上流传,四十个人在一起,同学虽然不再有男女的区隔;三五成群的小团体,在一切分组活动中结熏,却像楚河汉界般壁垒分明。不知为何,莫莉总是孤零零地被排挤在小圈圈之外。

奇怪的是,并没有人明显地对她表示不屑或厌恶的表情,但被排挤的讯息却很有默契地在同学之间织了张网,看不见影子,也没声音;但她却感受得到那张网的存在。那网上的每一条线都拉扯着她脆弱的神经,她没办法去摆脱仿佛在空气冻结的束缚,那种不痛不痒却被抛弃的难过,比公然被斥骂还令她感到可恨。她也不屑去理会他们,论家境,外貌,成绩,她可是人群中的公主,高高在上。她又干嘛自贬身份,去讨好那些庸庸碌碌的小丑?

“小姐,吃晚饭了!”陈管家轻柔的叫着,深怕得罪大小姐般的小心翼翼。“陈管家,我爸跟我妈呢?”“哦,先生和太太临时有重要的客户要应酬,恐怕不能和小姐一起共用晚餐了。”“知道了。”莫莉嘟着嘴。

老爸是任职知名马桶公司的总经理,老妈也是彩妆公司的高级主管,忙得连家里有个女儿都忘了吧? 他们哪天回来不是三更半夜?虽然有用不完的大把钞票,但她的内心总有说不出口的孤单和寂寞。装潢富丽的房子,金属玻璃的反光闪闪,反而倒映她内心的孤独;宽阔的空间,让她感觉到家里的冷清。

莫莉随便吞了几口饭菜就回到她的公主卧室了。她整个房间都油了粉红色的漆,因为粉红色是她最爱的颜色。床单,窗帘,电脑到地铺都是粉红色,让整个房间充满了公主的味道。她杂乱的情绪,不知摆放在哪里;角落那把抢眼的白色钢琴,她突然觉得它也好可怜好寂寞,于是擦掉琴键上的灰尘,拿出琴谱开始边弹边唱起了《匿名的朋友》。

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夜里,街上的嘈杂声已沉寂,人车稀少,只有几块霓虹灯招牌闪闪亮着。刚和哥哥般来新家的言佳雨,忙碌了一整天,躺在单人床上,很想睡的闭上干涩的双眼。为了能让言佳麟在工作上比较方便, 他们两兄妹决定把家搬到雪兰莪州,一再打听,才知道附近的这所国中有舞蹈班,她可以转进去,继续学习跳舞。哥哥佳麟跑了好多地方才选择了环境最差,设备最烂的这间;因为房租最便宜。

小小的房间没有点灯,只有窗外透进了微弱的银白光线。佳雨躺在木板床上,她觉得家里穷,哥哥赚钱辛苦,眼眶不禁湿润起来。如果不是困苦环境的磨练,她的青春年少该有点梦幻的诗情吧?可是,她的心灵里只有超越年龄的早熟和替哥哥分担着环境的忧愁。

突然,一个长长的单音,画破了寂静,接着是一串串悠扬的音符。黑暗中佳雨坐起身子,享受优美琴音与耳膜的共振。她走到窗边,知道钢琴声是从对面的大厦传出的。“哇,好漂亮的大厦哦!”佳雨映望着铺满了星星的夜空,却看不到大厦的顶端,心里好羡慕。“不知道是谁这么幸运, 家中有钱又会弹钢琴?”言佳雨绝对想不到:弹钢琴的,会是她即将见面的同学—莫莉。

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开学日,言佳雨进了舞蹈班教室,老师要她自我介绍。同学们对这位新转进的同学感到新鲜好奇外,也带着欢迎的惊喜,全班一致鼓起热烈的掌声。“大家好,我是言佳雨,因为哥哥工作的关系,所以搬来这里,很高兴认识大家,请多多指教。”佳雨露出可人的微笑,鞠躬下台。这个绑着马尾,轮廓分明的五官,谈吐之间流露出一股超越国中学生的稳重与成熟的转学生,引起了同学们的窃窃私语;莫莉强烈感受得同学和导师对她的喜爱。身高相当,佳雨被安排坐在莫莉旁边,入座时还甜甜的向她抿嘴一笑,莫莉有点来不及反应而尴尬,愣愣地看着她轻巧巧地转身,发上的缎带随着身体上下而扬起了一道美丽的孤线,姿势是那么优雅迷人,可望而不可及的气韵从她的身上飘散。也许是座位近,又是对面新搬来的邻居,佳雨很快就和莫莉熟识,友好起来。不,应该是佳雨和班上的所有同学都相当的要好;在这个处处是小团体的班级了,她近乎神奇地打破了隔阂,和所有人都建立起一定程度的亲密。她像是一只美丽的蝴蝶,到处受人欢迎。

心灵极度孤独的莫莉,需要友情的慰藉。全班的旧生都与她为敌似的。在幽暗的心灵角落,全新面貌的佳雨就像一线曙光向她走来。她不仅要紧紧抓住它,而且不许别人分享佳雨的友谊。
“佳雨,你刚搬来这里,如果需要什么帮忙找我就好。”莫莉讨好地说,“我们的导师最疼我了,有事我会陪你去告诉她。”
佳雨点点头,嫣然一笑像春天刚绽开的花朵,鲜艳美丽;她脸上习惯有的忧愁不见了。她心里十分感激;在她初到陌生的环境,莫莉慷慨又热情地向她伸出第一只友情之手。
“谢谢你,莫莉。你真好!”
“我的家境好,成绩又好,可是同学对我都不怎么友善。我很可怜,也不知为什么?”莫莉感叹地说。
“不会吧,你这么漂亮,而且人也很好呀!”佳雨由衷地赞美。
“我真的没得罪他们,也不知道他们讨厌我的原因。”莫莉声音哽咽,差点掉下眼泪。
她的自怜自艾终于有了回报。
佳雨握着她的双手说:“我一定当你的好朋友!”
纯真的佳雨一诺千金,加上莫莉特意的示好与拉拢,随着时间的推移,一种奇异的关系隐然成型——莫莉与佳雨批次彼此是最好的朋友。
她们一起上下学,一起吃便当,一起上厕所,一起牵手到舞蹈教室练舞......。对于莫莉来说,佳雨的出现不仅帮她剪开那张孤独的网,而且让她在班上嗅到友情的芳香,在人际关系上注入了活力,她特别特别喜欢她。

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开学后的第二个周末,佳雨刚认识了新环境。莫莉邀请佳雨到她家玩;出自于拉拢感情与夸耀家境的双重心理。踏进莫莉的家,佳雨睁大了眼睛,宫殿般的客厅装饰,在如葡萄串倒吊的水晶灯拂照下,显得无比富丽,价值不菲的酒柜与沙发椅座, 加上晶莹剔透的磁砖地,让佳雨走起路来都小心翼翼,好像灰姑娘刚到王子似的,大开眼界又觉得自己的身份卑微。 看到莫莉家的光景没、,想到自己家的寒酸简陋,佳雨心中浮起未有的羡慕与嫉妒:“为什么我我们的家境会差那么多?”

莫莉拉她进书房,叫管家泡了两杯卡布奇诺。整整一个下午,莫莉分享了她的一切,不论是那些好像没翻阅过的新书,电脑里的游戏,或是那些式样千姿百态的时髦玩偶,佳雨都可以尽情地去玩弄与触摸。更多的时候,她是静静地坐在莫莉身边,听她弹钢琴,奏出一曲又一曲哀怨有优美的琴音。佳雨唯一不解的是,莫莉好像不愿谈她的父母亲。

“喂!佳雨,我们是最好的朋友对不对?”莫莉打断佳雨继续沉醉在爱情小说世界。
“当然是。”佳雨心不在焉地回答。
“那你永远做我最好,而且是唯一的好朋友。”莫莉以期待的眼神望着佳雨。她本来是孤独的,回到家也是寂寞的,她好不容易才遇到佳雨这根浮木,她可要紧紧抓着不放。
“好啊!”佳雨不加思考,就答应了。开学一个多月,她觉得莫莉真的好像没半个朋友;记得她以前说过,同学们不知为什么都不喜欢她,似乎她的条件太好,像遥不可及的孤星,所以她也没再去问缘由。
“那我们来打勾勾!”莫莉兴奋的说道。
“打勾勾?”佳雨不解地问。
“对啊!像承诺一样,保证我们永远不变心。”
两个女孩双手勾着,慎重且煞有其事的许下承诺。在逆光的书房里,莫莉的神情是认真的:“我们永远都是好朋友。”
两人的手还紧勾着。在肃穆的气氛中,佳雨隐约感受到订立契约的隆重,心想:我会是你永远的好友。

然而时境会迁变,这个打勾勾的契约,却因为莫莉的某些心态而变质了。先是期中考试,她虽然维持第一名的宝座,佳雨却以一分之差紧追在后,严重构成了她的威胁,让她失去遥遥领先的光彩。接着,在舞蹈教室的表现,那些动作,不论是侧翻,飞腿,倒立,大花刀,十三响......身材纤柔的佳雨好像是天生的舞蹈胚子,每一投足举步都恰到好处,姿势优美;老师时常都以无懈可击来赞美她。而莫莉呢?练习再久,都跳不出那份美丽的神韵,永远比不上佳雨的完美。国中第二学期,佳雨更抢了她的班长宝座。以往班长由级任老师指定,莫莉虽得不到同学的喜爱,但由于她常常送礼给老师,老师特别疼爱她,成绩与长相她都是班上的第一,老师顺理成章的指定她当班长。

如今,老师说:“连总统都是民选了,何况是班长。”
班长由全班同学选举。选前,莫莉送金沙巧克力给同学们,他们却把票都投给了佳雨,让莫莉觉得丢尽面子。佳雨当上班长,原本成熟伶俐的她,负起班上的大小事务,表现得可圈可点。连科任老师都赞美她,什么事都交给佳雨办。而佳雨不了解莫莉心中的难堪,不管到哪里都拉着她作伴。为了先前打勾勾的承诺,光彩被唯一的朋友抢尽,莫莉脆弱的心被刺痛了还要强颜欢笑。佳雨像校园中飞舞的魅力蝴蝶,师师长赞美的焦点;在佳雨耀眼的光芒下,莫莉黯然失色。她像让红花更艳丽的绿叶,只剩承托佳雨的价值。
“因为佳雨是我的好朋友。”
“那是当然的,佳雨和我最要好。”
“没办法,我和佳雨是好朋友嘛!”莫莉不得不如此地向大家宣告佳雨和她是好朋友,来替失落的心灵找个借口。

过去曾打勾勾约定的承诺,已随着宣告次数的频繁,原先那种情感紧密依靠的感觉,像是失去了效力的仙女棒,逐渐转变成另一种形式的负担。直到有一天,佳雨被学校派去参观别校的舞蹈展,莫莉才惊诧地觉得,那个短暂的上午是多么的孤单难挨,她又回到佳雨未转进学校的落寞情景。没有人陪她吃便当,没有人要陪她上厕所,也没有人要上课时偷偷传字条给她;往日孤寂无助的感觉重新涌上心头。莫莉顿时觉得,她过渡依赖了佳雨,她也渐渐的习惯了佳雨的存在,没了她,她的日子好无聊,好无趣。

有一件事,让莫莉不平衡的心灵较安稳了些。佳雨是她家的常客,佳雨因为家中景物破旧而自卑,不敢邀请莫莉上门;要不是莫莉提起要到她家的话,她永远也不可能主动邀请她。那天傍晚,她们俩并肩走在回家的路。
莫莉突然想到她没去过佳雨家。
“佳雨,我想到你家坐坐呢!”
“对哦,我忘了,你还没到过我家。”佳雨以平常的口吻带点戏谑,说道:“我家很老旧简陋,欢迎大小姐光临参观。”


进了佳雨的家门,眼前的景象有点吓倒了莫莉。
“天啊!佳雨怎么在这样的地方住得习惯啊?”莫莉内心喊叫着。
狭窄的楼梯连一盏灯都没有,用红塑胶皮包铁片的扶手已歪斜脱落。走进佳雨的客厅,她看见地板上铺的塑胶皮老旧脱色,只有两张用藤制的椅子,以及一台二十吋的老旧黑白电视机。比起佳雨,她觉得自家的物质享受不知高级几倍。真是人各有其面,像佳雨这么多才多艺的漂亮女孩,家境竟然是那么的贫乏不起眼。至少,佳雨的家境是远不可及我的......。

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“咦,怎么抽屉里又有一封匿名信啊?莫莉,刚才有没有人来过啊?”佳雨好奇的问道。
“没有耶,我刚才去了图书馆一趟。怎么了吗?你又收到匿名信哦?好好哦,都没人送我鼓励信,叫我好好专心跳舞。”莫莉嘟着嘴对佳雨撒娇。
“佳雨啊,我刚刚看到你那个舞蹈班的小学妹来过耶!”宝珠热情的通知佳雨。
“我舞蹈班的小学妹?谁啊?叫什么名字?”
“那个戴厚厚的眼镜,还绑牙的那个小学妹,头发梳成两个可爱的小辫子,很像叫做什么伟珊的。”宝珠搔搔头,不好意思地说出伟珊的名字。
“快点快点,快告诉我们信里的内容!”莫莉迫不及待地一直摇晃佳雨的左手。
“好吧,我开始念了哦!你好,我是“守着佳雨的太阳”。昨天,我看见你在舞蹈教室里的神情像有心事般,还频频跳错舞步呢!若你......。”

自从三个月前,佳雨一直在她的抽屉里发现一些匿名信,而且信都是来自于“守着佳雨的太阳”。信的内容都是一些鼓励着佳雨的话,而且这个“守着佳雨的太阳”对佳雨的行踪都了如指掌。“守着佳雨的太阳”都知道佳雨发生过什么事,就像是她的守护神,因为佳雨的一切都逃不过它的法眼。奇怪的是,都没人看过是谁把信放进佳雨的抽屉。难道“守着佳雨的太阳”就是佳雨的守护神?

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“佳雨,你跳舞又跳错拍子了!专心点!你还是到一旁先休息吧。”甄玫老师不悦地神情让其他的同学们都加紧脚步认真练习,免得被遭殃。
“怎么了吗?很少看你跳舞那么不专心。”莫莉以关心的口气来慰问佳雨。
“没有啦,我只是在想到底是谁在送我那些匿名信。”
“何必为了那位莫名其妙的“守着佳雨的太阳”而不专心跳舞啊?难不成你看不出甄玫老师是在反复思考要找谁代表校方参加那《火之艳》的比赛吗?赶快起来继续练舞啦!”莫莉被佳雨气得直跳脚。
“佳雨,莫莉,经过老师的一番思考,加上你们又是舞蹈班的精英,我想要你们每天放学后留在学校练习舞蹈,我之后会再选你们其中一位代表校方参加《火之艳》的舞蹈比赛。不晓得你们ok吗?”甄玫老师甜甜地说,刚才那对着佳雨凶的表情都不见了。甄玫老师可是学校的数一数二的大美女,她的座位上时常都有男老师送她的巧克力,卡片和鲜花。
“当然没问题!我们一定不会辜负老师对我们的期望,一定会很努力的把舞给练好的!”莫莉激动的握着老师的手,像在表演舞台剧的夸张,惹得甄玫老师和佳雨哈哈大笑。

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“好,干得好,来继续,一,二,三,四,五,六,七,八......。”甄玫老师满意地看着莫莉和佳雨的舞步。这两个小妮子的学习能力出乎意料的快,而且一点就通,连甄玫老师都佩服她们。“莫莉,你先下台休息一下吧,老师想纠正一下佳雨的舞步,让它比较完美。”
“哦,好的。佳雨,加油加油!”莫莉嬉皮笑脸地为她的好友打气。
就在佳雨在舞台上表演舞蹈的同时,被不知从哪来出现的宝珠推了一把。
“小心!”
顿时,全部动作都像是慢动作般,台上的灯罩掉了下来,弄得满地都是玻璃碎。第一个从错愕中醒来的是甄玫老师, 她立刻下了指令:“宝珠,快把佳雨扶开,要是踏到玻璃碎就不好了。”“莫莉,快通知校长和清洁阿姨,快!”

五分钟后,地上的玻璃碎都被清洁阿姨扫干净了。校长也证实了灯罩的铁线是被人用刀片割坏的。
“是谁那么坏心眼把铁线割坏的啊?幸好佳雨没事!”莫莉愤怒的说。
“没关系啦,最重要是现在我人没事啊!”佳雨赶紧安慰莫莉,深怕她会因此而搞大事情。
“老师,我想去旁边休息一下。”

“怎么会发生这样的事情啊?到底是谁那么恨我啊?”佳雨不解地嘀咕着。“我又没得罪任何人?为什么要那样对付我呢?那个人又怎么知道站在台上的人一定是我啊?
“佳雨姐,刚刚你们还没来的时候,我看到伟珊有偷偷摸摸的进来,会不会是她做的啊?”宝珠害臊的搔骚头,每当她紧张时她都会习惯性的搔头。
“应该不可能吧?我和她又没过节。”
“很难说哦,可能她在气你不回信给她呢?但这也不能怪你啦,我们又不确定是不是伟珊送你那些匿名信。”不知从哪里蹦出来的莫莉赶紧回答。
“佳雨姐,莫莉姐,你们还是先离开吧,我看这橱好像不太稳耶,一直摇摇晃晃的。”宝珠好心发言警告。
果真,当莫莉,佳雨和宝珠离开后,那用木制作的旧橱就这样倒了下来,把所有人给吓坏了。“我看,你们还是现回家好了,这里突然发生那么多事,我不想你们受到任何的伤,以免影响到你们在《火之艳》的舞蹈比赛。”甄玫老师和校长催促他们过后,就赶紧的回校长室讨论刚刚所发生的事。

“咦,莫莉,我包包里好像有封信。不知道是谁放进去的。”
“是吗?赶快拿出来看一看是不是那“守着佳雨的太阳”写给你的。伟珊她到底想怎样啊?一边些鼓励信给你,另一边又作小动作来陷害你让你去不成比赛。她也是个舞者,怎么会不清楚这是个难得的机会来让我们表现及发展呢?”
“喂,我想请问这位莫莉小姐怎么会比本小姐更激动呢?”
“哎哟,人家是关心你嘛!”莫莉害臊的摸摸鼻子。
“这个“守着佳雨的太阳”想约我今晚在学校的礼堂见面耶!你说我该不该去呢?我很好奇这“守着佳雨的太阳”究竟是谁。给我意见,好不好?”佳雨一脸困惑的问莫莉。
“我觉得你应该去和她见面。见了面不就什么都能搞清楚吗?你也可以乘机问问她究竟要做什么啊!那不就什么谜底都能解开了吗?”莫莉兴奋地提议。

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“喂,有人在吗?”言佳雨已经在礼堂待了差不多十分钟了,但那位“守着佳雨的太阳”却没出现。“奇怪了,明明约了在十点,怎么到现在都还没出现啊?”
哒,哒,哒,哒, 均匀的脚步声从礼堂的大门响起。佳雨迫不及待的转过身,但眼前的景象却让她不知所措。
“莫莉?你怎么回来啊?是给我壮壮胆吗?还是太八卦了,迫不及待的要知道谁是“守着佳雨的太阳”?”佳雨开玩笑的亏损着。
“你是那么的相信我啊?还是你只是笨的可怜?难道你到现在还不明白?我就是“守着佳雨的太阳”!是我要陷害你的!是我要让你受伤,让你去不成比赛的!”莫莉红着脖子的呐喊。
“我不明白,你为什么要这样的对我?你为什么要陷害我?我们不是最要好的朋友吗?”
“朋友?我呸!你有真心的想当我的朋友吗?没有!你只是在可怜我而已!在你还没出现之前,老师是疼爱的;但自从你出现之后,一切都变了!我所有的光彩都被你抢尽了!你口口声声地说要当我的好朋友,但最后你不是当了班长之后就死命拉着我四处帮老师吗?你不要以为我不知道,其实你这么做只是想让老师们和同学们知道你比我还能干,让我难堪!”
“不,莫莉,你误会我了。事情不是你想像的那样......”
“你不要再假惺惺了。这里没有外人在,你有何必再装下去呢?”
“莫莉,你听我解释,可能我的行为让你误会了,可是我真的是把你当成我的好朋友啊!你又为什么要说信是伟珊送的呢?”
“哼,我看,遭受老师们和同学们爱戴的言佳雨也聪明不到哪儿去!我这样做是要把嫌疑和罪名都推给伟珊!是她自作自受!谁叫她羡慕和崇拜的不是我而是你?哈哈哈哈,这是她自找的!”
“你疯了!你是想人气想到疯了?伟珊她是无辜的!”
“对,你是无辜的,伟珊也是无辜的,只有我最该死是不是?今晚,我就要把你的腿给打废了,让你去不成《火之艳》的舞蹈比赛,老师就一定会选我去了!哈哈哈哈!我倒想看看,打断你的腿后,你还有没有机会可以在舞蹈上打败我?这世界上没有人可以打败我!”
佳雨听了后连忙拿了包包就跑开。她想还是先回避一下,让莫莉冷静后在慢慢的和她解释清楚。
“哎呀!”忙着跑开的佳雨没发现到地上的一滩水,滑倒了,并且扭到了脚腕。
“哼,我看你还能往哪里跑!”莫莉说完便用了全身的力气把铁棒挥向佳雨的脚。
“完了完了,我这一辈子就这样完了!”就当佳雨想放弃的同时,伟珊突然从莫莉的旁边出现,还给了莫莉一个过肩摔,让莫莉痛苦的躺在地上呻吟。
“佳雨姐,你没事吧?我已经通知了甄枚老师和校长,他们应该快到了!”伟珊担心的检查佳雨的脚伤。
“伟珊,对不起!我起初不该怀疑你想陷害我!但是我想不到你竟然是柔道高手耶!”佳雨衷心地向伟珊道歉。
“伟珊,佳雨,你们都没事吧?伟珊,你先把佳雨扶去一旁吧!”甄枚老师吩咐道。
“莫莉同学,你的所作所为实在令我们太失望了!你为了个人利益,竟然不计任何代价的伤害对待你最好的朋友!我和甄枚老师已经查了校方的闭路电视,发现竟然是莫莉同学把灯罩的铁线给割坏。难道莫莉同学不知道身为舞者,双腿是最重要的吗?舞者能不能在台上发光发热,全靠那双灵活的双腿!莫莉同学,就算佳雨同学的脚伤未能在《火之艳》的舞蹈比赛前完全复原,我们学校宁可自动弃权也不可能会派出向你这样自私自利的学生代表学校!莫莉同学,你等着收到你的退学信吧!”校长狠狠地说完后就扶着佳雨去医院检查伤势。

莫莉和佳雨万万想不到她们的友情竟然会是这样的结尾。一心一意地想要表达出她对两人友谊是无比认真的佳雨对此事自责不已。佳雨认为莫莉会变成这样子是自己一手造成的。

真正的友情不依靠什么,不依靠事业、祸福和身份,不依靠经历、地位和处境。它在本质上拒绝功利,拒绝归属,拒绝契约。它是独立人格之间的互相呼应和确认,它使人们独而不孤,互相解读自己存在的意义。因此,所谓朋友,是使对方活得更加温暖、更加自在的那些人。

::The End::


Thanks for reading! Any suggestions or any suitable changes kindly let me know! =)

p.s It's now 8009 words instead of 7937 words! =P
I made a few changes here and there to make it urm, nicer and it ended up with more words!


Okay, relatives kept commenting about how fat I've become. :x
And I noticed it, okay! No need to remind me again!!!!


So, I decided to do workouts routine and I WILL slim down until your jaw drops down in disbelieve! Although it is most likely I'll get fatter by the time you next meet me. =P
Don't know why la, the feng shui (geomancy) here is like good for making babies and people fatter. :x


Really, the babies population is increasing day by day 9 months by 9 months! I can even volunter to do the statistic for you! I mean, people ARE always getting pregnant in this area. Don't bother to ask me why, ask them instead. Maybe they wanna save their income on condoms or contraceptive pills? Who knows? xD


SO? My main point is, I got to get my lazy bum bum up the chair and get my face away from my lappie and start doind exercise! Oh, and shove my face away from foods, please! But I don't think that is agood solution, because my friends will know that I can't resist food and oh my, you should look at the meals I eat in school!
Prefects hate me because I always bring food outside the canteen! =P

Thursday, March 18, 2010

Oh yea, oh yea, I finally finished my chinese essay like after so long!

We're suppose to write around 3000 words, and guess how much I wrote??
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7937 words!!



I'm like freaking proud of myself wei! Feel like puting swear words in front to enforce how proud I am to finsih the essay in 2 days. Well, the two days seems like forever, with lots of things that happened lately and I'm grateful to have friends that are encouraging.

Unlike some so-called friends! Hah!

Will post the story up later, after I check it once again for corrections and stuffs like that. =)

I probably should like ask you guys to read Xiaxue's script about Jack Neo's press conference. I know she is already famous but no harm help her advertise more, right? I was laughing like shiat when I saw that post and it is really freaking funny!
http://xiaxue.blogspot.com/2010/03/hey-look-look-its-jack-neo-entry.html

Vivien and I watched her wedding solemnization ceremony LIVE! Then we were discussing in msn about how lucky she is to have sponsors for her wedding and so forth. I even sent her the link to Xiaxue's wedding photos and she said that the photos are nice, besides the word speechless. =D

One essay down, 3 more to go.

p.s Due to the excessive crying for few days in a row, my eyes are all puffy and red for every single day! Why did I cry? For personal reasons and of course another reason is watching taiwanese dramas! I don't understand why do I always cry when I watch taiwanese dramas.