Oh yeah~~
Oh yeah~~
Oh yeah~~
He called, and I didn't realize that. T.T But I thought he won't pick up the phone when I call him back, because I asume that he's busy with his work. Prove me wrong. (: He hang up my call, as usual,and call me back. ^-^ Oh yeah~~ I just don't know why he like to hang up my call and call me back. He apply another number again, and he says that it's for fun. Du-hh. Talking nonsense on the phone can be fun. (: I don't know how long we've been talking, I just know that my ears are hot and my handphone too! I forgot that I could change my ear to listen to the phone. I really didn't realize that I keep saying DUWAN througout our converstion. =P Did I? Haha, thanks for the singing.
Chay Fhei coming to my house and sleep over on friday night. Am I correct? I'm getting forgetful these few days. Chay Fhei oh Chay Fhei, my dog is going to be insane when she saw you. Remember to wear long pants and if you don't know why, you can always refer to Vivien Wee. (:

This morning banyak malunya~~ I forgot who told me got spot check fingernails, ( when I remember who's that person, you're going to DIE! xD )so when I saw the prefect walking over, I was showing my ten fingers to her, and I keep saying :"you see, my fingernails so short!" and the prefect also blur blur. =.=" She must have thought I got mental problem. T.T Malunya~~ Who's that person ah?!

Slept in school AGAIN for dunno how long. Thank god no saliva! xD With not lagi malu. Pn. Chan didn't come mah, then I got nothing to do also, sleep lo. I didn't finish my sejarah notes!! I'm so nervous when I saw teacher marking our notes one by one, but when she saw my work, she just say :"Finish up your work." Phew~~

走近你的时候
仿佛走近自己
仿佛读一则小品那样有清闲的喜欢
我明白这时间已不再想流浪
我也知道紫色是一种凄迷的情调
每次回首都可以使人动心
而动心原是一种感情的播种...

I didn't expect that I can use the computer today. School today are still okay. I wore pinafore and it's so erm, not comfortable? xD Guess I'll need to get use to it. That BM teacher ah, I really beh-tahan liao. Talking crap in front there, ishhh. I don't know how last year's 2 Doritis can stand that teacher teaching them sejarah by talking crap. Reach home about two something again, but this time, aunty fetch me around 1.30? I tought she forgot about me!

Woohoo!! He called. I thought he'll be quite busy for this few months. xD

I'll always be there,
In times of trouble,
In times of need,
If you're feeling sad,
You can always count on me.
I'll give you a wink until you smile.
Give you a hug and stand by YOU! :)

First day of school was, uhm, ok la. And I forgot to take out my tanda sesi from my baju kurung. I feel so wierd the whole day ( except recess time ) xD Vanessa and I were rushing to see Vivien when it came to recess time. I was like day-dreaming when teacher is teaching. Du-hh, that teacher don't know how to teach. She said:" If you pass up your homework AT time, you'll have A". Hello?! I think even Pua Chu KAng's English is better than you. And Yay! We have Pn. Chan as our English teacher. Wakaka~~ Her class is fun, especially when it came to the BITCH part. Well, I've tried bathing in the morning and it's freaking COLD! I don't know why there's no HOT water even though I've on the heater. I'm going to boil water tomorrow. I've been shivering from head to toe. Ishh. Yea, and I also found out that different class have different time to go back. For example, Vivien's going back early on wednesday, but we in Eria need to stay until 1.45pm for the dunno what KO-AG. Ishh, I don't get to go back with Vivien. I heard that Cik Ng is teaching morning session. OH, is that true? And Wen Chuan told me that Pn. Khaw is not teaching for 1 year. So mummy, can I not take chinese? No teacher mah!! If got teacher also sure not good d la! =P

You better make things clear. How do you expect me to accept your apology without knowing why you wanna say sorry?
Now, the stupid DVD player got problem. NO sound! What the?! First, is the laptop, next, is the DVD player. What next? Tv ah? !#%@%#@!
I know I'm talking crap up there, too bored! No more dramas to watch. I've finished all. I'm laughing like hell when I'm watching the Japanese show video. My sis ask me to watch. Damn funny. Wakaka~~ They're not suppose to laugh, but the guy's english is so BAD!

画上天堂 和对翅膀
尽力飞到那远方
飞的路上蒸发所有的伤
才能到天堂
YOU ARE THE ONE
DONT LET ME FLY
回忆太难推开
天堂的门早向我打开
我却走不进来
曾经是自由的云彩
为你化作水流向大海
寂寞常在 夜里醒来
把我推向更深的海
明知你不是幸福海
越来越沉
浮不出来 为了找爱
背负太多的债
再也飞不起来
你能包容 太多的爱
融在一起化不开
我的翅膀
被一滴泪烫伤
飞不到天堂
YOU ARE THE ONE
DONT LET ME FLY
回忆太难推开
天堂的门早向我打开
我却走不进来
曾经是自由的云彩
为你化作水流向大海
寂寞常在 夜里醒来
把我推向更深的海
曾经是自由的云彩
为你化作水流向大海
寂寞常在
夜里醒来
把我推向更深的海
明知你不是幸福海
越来越沉 浮不出来
为了找爱
背负太多的债
再也飞不起来

I'm boring!!! Hope that I can talk my mum off by letting me use the laptop on weekdays. With not I'm gonna miss him!! I really hope that Vivien can't find her pinafore's white shirt. Then she'll go naked to school. Wakaka~~ There's some workers here walking here and there in my house to check on the air-conds. And damn that worker, he blacken my wall. And so now my wall is not light green, is light grey green. #@!$#@% My mum and dad were doing some kind of "spring cleaning" and I'm idling here doing nothing. Anybody know what to bring to school on the first day of school? I'm blur.

Ehem, you mean which shooting? The gun shooting? Piang piang piang? LOL, I get what you mean. I'm just bored.

变成了一个影，隐藏了自己
爱情困难呼吸，我是沉默玩具
执着对你无限情，模糊我自己
不愿深深把爱情，输了你的游戏
你要逃，对决拥抱，我看到
为什么爱上你的人是我
为什么一厢情愿的人会难过
为什么对你舍不得的人是我
爱上你需要那真情意
说在而情意
寂寞点点不休息，而让甜蜜却也忘记
幸福不再美丽，可是我会在意
这种对你的深情，我不会怪自己
不愿意深深的情意
输了你的游戏
你要逃，对决了拥抱，我看到
为什么爱上你的人是我
为什么一厢情愿的人会难过
为什么对你舍不得的人是我
爱上你需要那真情意
说在而情意
喔...爱...
为什么对你舍不的人是我
还是你需要那真情意
喔...爱...
这么爱你的人会难过
为什么对你舍不的人是我
还是你需要那真情意
说在而情意

Went to Sunway Pyramid with family in the afternoon, walked alone as usual. Suppose to meet someone there, but he's way too late, because I gotta go back already. Window shopped as usual and oh my, it's so good to be a millionair, no, BILLIONAIR. Imagine that you can buy loads of nice shirts, dresses, shoes, novels!! Wow, that is sure NICE. :) Ok, stop dreaming, it's not even night yet. My mum saw her straight into the face! That's not a very good news for me. Yuck, stay away! Then we went to Daiki for tea-time. Then, drop by at newstation to buy books. I think Vivien had already bought hers. Head home and Johnson sms me. Why say sorry when you're not wrong? I should have thank you, you know? It's not your fault, if you've known the truth, maybe you wouldn't even say sorry.

如果你不爱一个人,
请放手.
好让别人有机会爱她.
如果你爱的人放弃了你,
请放开自己,
好让自己有机会爱别人.

有的东西,你再喜欢也不会属于你的,
有的东西,你再留恋也注定要放弃的.

人生中有许多种 .
但别让自己为一种伤害.

有些缘分是注定要失去的,
有些缘分是永远都不会有好结果的,
爱一个人不一定要拥有,
但拥有一个人就一定要好好的去爱她.

男人哭了是因为他真的爱了.
女人哭了是因为她真的放弃了.

如果真诚是一种伤害,
我选择谎言;
如果谎言一种伤害,
我选择沉默;
如果沉默是一种伤害,
我选择离开.

如果失去是苦，
你怕不怕付出 ,
如果迷乱是苦，
你会不会选择结束,
如果追求是苦，
你会不会选择执迷不悟 ,
如果分离是苦，
你要向谁倾诉,
好多事情都是后来才看清楚,
好多事情当时一点也不觉得苦!!!!

P/S: Joanne, sorry ya!

Wohoo, I'm 15( if you count by year )!!! Wee~~ then another 3 years more I'll be 18. Did you all countdown yesterday? Well, I didn't. By that time I'm sleeping like a pig in my cozy bed. Wakaka~~ I recieve tons of sms which is in chinese. My phobe can't view chinese!! Wanna reformat it, but I want those games, songs, and of course, all those sms. Can't save all those sms in one shot. Ishh...

Finally found a blogskin that's nice.
Suddenly, I'm out of words.
Suddenly, I don't know what to blog.
Suddenly, I feel that I don't wanna talk.

Really have fun arguing with Sheen Yeen. Haha, she insist that she's mature, but I don't think so. Oh, I need to exercise!! My T-Shirts are getting tighter. :P 3 more days and school reopens. I don't wanna go to school. When school starts, I can only use the computer in the weekends! Noooo!! But at least I get to chat with Vivien everyday by then. Praying hard that Pn. Reetha is not going to teach us next year. But Sheen Yeen claims her to be good.

Ohh, I smell something nice from the kitchen. Wakaka~~ Food again. BLog again later! Bye~~

31st of December, last day of the year, also my mum's birthday!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MUM!!

We helped her celebrate yesterday. My sis bought a cheese strawberry cake. But we're still going to have dinner with her in her favorite restaurant.

Yiks! 4 more days then school reopens. I wanna stay at home! Nah, I sign up friendster again. :P Need to re-add my friends again. I'm lazy. Yea, I feel that we're not that close at all, you know that? Hmm, let time do the decisions. I'll just wait, because that's the only thing I can do for now, right? xD

他们说，暧昧时期是在谈恋爱里最幸福的时刻。我也这样觉得耶！暧昧时期过了，就什么也没了。做人干吗要这样沮丧啊？ 应该快快乐乐过每一天。说是容易，但做起来，却没这么容易！突然间，什么消息都没有，这算什么？说到相信，其实我还是在半信半疑。 结论是，一言难尽！

Hello everyone! I want the laptop back! I don't wanna use my dad's one! His laptop can't even type chinese! Wanting to post a chinese post but too bad, the comp is in the computer shop right now, repairing. And my dad was joking that make sure in the computer has no nude pics! xD Random post today.

Have steamboat instead of steak on Christmas night. And since did I become so "zha bet" on alcohol? Just two glass of white wine and I'm starting to get HIGH! I can't even read properly. Oh, damn that wine! Miss the chance to talk with woo woo. T.T I slept dead that night. My dad bought some DVD back and those movie were super duper BORING! It's better to watch my HngKong dramas.

Went to check on my results with Vivien in the morning. Sad that I'm still in Eria and I'm the only one! Can only blame on myself for not working harder. That Vivien is jumping up and down when she found out she's still in Doritis. Du-hh! Then went out with my parents to Times Square and Pavillion. Oh, the clothes there was sure nice! Bought few from Romp.

Had some SWEET dreams this few days! Wakaka~~ I dreamt that he sent me a ring as a gift! So sweet. Although that dream is quite blurry, but hehehe, that dream kept me laughing for few days! The blur me forgot to wish him Merry Christmas! =( And I didn't pick up his phone call. Aiks! Sorry ya! =P

1 more week then school starts. My mum keep asking me to revise my books and I'm LAZY! She keep nagging me and say I won't have much time to revise Form1 and Form2 syllabus next year. And the worst thing is she wants me to cut down my time on Internet! NO NO NO NO NO! Unless you buy me that Blackberry phone that can online 24 hours! I wanna wait for woo woo to online. But is better now because I have his m'sia number.

I don't wanna stay at Eria ALONE! But after a few days thinking, it's better for me because I can concentrate on my studies better. If Vivien and I are in the same class, I'm sure we'll be chit-chatting non-stop in class.

Came back home from PDL yesterday, I slept dead in the car due to crying too much and lack of sleepness AGAIN! I did not sleep on the last night on the course because I'm scared to be late again for the P.E. and my mum keep saying I'm silly to wait at the night like that. So, sitting at the dining room alone, and it's quite spooky to sit there myself! At the closing ceremomy, I keep crying! Jasmine is the 1st one to go up and when she's giving the speech, I already start to cry. My parents thought that I don't wanna leave the course but it's just some thinking that pop into my mind that make me cry like a baby. So I'm the 32th to go up the stage and my eyes is already red when I go up to the stage. I totally forgot what I say on top of the stage. And my dad forget to but the VCD of the closing ceremony. Sob Sob. But my mum called Tina already, wake up at 11 today. xD My cousin wake up at 12 today she's more geng than me leh. I was woke by Vivien's SMS, and we plan to go together to school on Friday. I heard that Elaine is going to Doritis! OMG! I'm scared now, I'm scared that I'm not in Eria next year. nevermind, I BELIEVE IN MYSELF! =) Tomorrow is CHRISTMAS! Going to have steamboat at my house. Yay! Actually I wanna have steak, but my mum and dad say have a change this time. Bye~~ I wanna watch Moonlight Resonance now. Keke, I know la, you guys finish that movie ages ago!

I'm back from HAC!! That Vivien ah, know I'm going camp still ask me to update my blog, now updating lo. Due to the lack of "sleepness", I'm having panda eyes right now. Then woo woo still say:" Panda should have panda eyes wert." Hmph! I'm exhausted, and I going to the other camp few hours later and I wanna sleep and watch TV! My mum just bought Moonlight Resonance and I wanna watch that.

Day 1 ( 16 Dec )
Poor Jes, gotta fetch me to KL central. Then the bus came and fetch us to Agrotek, Ulu Langat. Reach there earlier than the estimate time. And I saw flying fox!! I wanna play that! They help us to take our bag down to the resort, because the so called resort is down the hill. They have 8 tribes there, and I'm in Wild Panther. So beware, I bite! Grr... xD Have our breakfast, then check-in to our rooms. I'm in dorm C and 52 of us is sharing 5 toilets! I choose the upper deck that is near to the fan! Because that time is kinda hot and stuffy in that room, but when it's night time, I regret! It's freaking cold there. They are choosing 5 people to do the flying fox and I want! It's the longest flying fox in Selangor which riders will glide down 190m cables as high as 70 m in the air. And I'm not choosen! :( Ashley got to the flying fox, she's so lucky! But if you do the flying fox, you'll waste the whole day waiting at the hut on top of the hill. Then we have a tribal meet and we have 30 minutes to do a totem head and a totem flag. Our totem head looks more like a long-tongue ghost than a panther. Then we gotta think of a apache cry.
Campers = Apache
Then after lunch, gotta build a tower and airplane. We cheat by putting a crayon below the plane to stabilize it. Before that, we had our face PAINT! We have red paint and they are planning to do some kind of dracula. So 2 fangs, initial WP on our cheeks, and some red paint under our eyes. I showed my mum that picture and she keep laughing. After dinner and wash up ( but I just wash off those face paint ), we have a talk on gratitude and forgiveness by Ariva, the captain. He was saying that he was the youngest captain and has a big big big ship and has go around the world and has been to the not once nor twice, is 7 times. Then he had some problems on the sea and he keep thanking the god for giving such an experience and seeking forgiveness from the god too. So when we have jungle trekking at night, we keep saying thank you god for giving us such a experience. Before that, they give us some kind of water and ask us to dip our finger in it and suck our finger. That water is like salt water, Eww. Then we were kidding about our totem head might attract the ghost to come near us. 36 person using 3 torches. Oh ya, is 35, because Gurru is not there, he's with the completers. FYI, is GURRU, not guru. That's what he say when he introduce himself, he's the leader for our tribe. Even the 7 1/2 year old Ashley went to the trekking. Mei Xian, Willey and I were holding on to the flag pole. Halfway, Willey keep saying I feel leeches on my leg, it's inside my trousers! But when we reach the resort, there's nothing in it! Mei Xian has 2, 1 on her hand and 1 on her leg. Haha, as for me, I don't have any free kisses or suckings from those leech. We're the 2nd tribe to reach the resort and we're not allowed to go back to our rooms. But I still go to have bathing at my room because I didn't bathe earlier. The water is so muddy and it's COLD! After that is bed time! It's around 12 something when we sleep. I wake up at 5 just to brush my teeth and I went back sleeping again =.="

Day 2 ( 17 Dec )
We have morning exercise and the chief ask us to find a partner which is same sex and have the same height. And oh, the exercise should be labeled 18++. Vivien, you should go and try that exercise. Wakaka~ Then we have our breakfast and head to the main hall and we have boring motivations talk. Before that they have games and we need to hold hands to pass the pulse. After lunch was outdoor games. Wee, I've been waiting for that! The 1st tepee we need to use our brain cells and 2nd tepee is much more fun than the first 1. We were given 3 cardboards and 18 of us need to squeeze in 2 cardboards because we need to move the 3rd cardboard. We were like hugging each other because our feet can't touch the grass. Then after that is water activities. We need to pass through the first station without touching the strings and the second station, the 10 people need to carry us over the string about the same height as me without touching the string. And when it's my turn, the boys were like shouting, no more smaller girls or boys meh? Wei ah, I very big meh? But before me is Mei Xian, then the boys say Mei Xian is the heaviest! I kinda pity Chia Leung because he's been carrying us over and he always slip. They 10 boys carried 17 of us over in dunno how many minutes. Then after few activities, we had free time in the river or stream, and Gerard keep pushing me down when ever I came out from the river. So we were like pushing each other down. Then I forgot who ask my help to pull him out and I was so stupid to believe him and I got pull down instead. So we were splashing water and I was being carry down the water. I carry my leg and 1 carry my shoulder and they swing me in the water. Then when I was in the water, I found out that Vincent's pants sudah "bao tai"! Then we had a group photo in the other stream and I'm too short to be in the photo. Then I've wait for the toilet for 40 minutes, while waiting, Min Li, I and another girl were chatting and gossiping. Then I was 5 minutes late for the Hakka practice at the Flight od the Tottem. :P They didn't found out that I'm late. Then we had BBQ dinner, those things were pre-BBQ. Campfire after that, our Hakka were very very messy. We forgot the moves. Then while others was doing, Willey, Min Li and I were chatting at the back. He told me a joke that was very very very funny. Vivien, remind me to tell you that yellow joke, you should like that. Then there were singing, just need to follow up those alphabets. Then, fireworks! Just few only. Then they were planning to stay up all night. But I sleep instead. This piggy here need some sleep!

Day 3 ( 18 Dec )
Last day! Woke up early for the morning exercise and there was none. Maybe the chief over slept. After breakfast, we head to the main hall to have our presentation and prize giving. Then say goodbye lo! I was so sleepy then. We've wait in the bus for half an hour for a girl who's already in the bus. Then at KL central, I still need to wait for another 1 more hour for my mum!

Gotta go pack my bag for the next camp now. Bye~~

P/S : Woo woo, you're too handsome to be a wild boar! :P

Anyone have korean dramas? I wanna borrow! Leave me a message if you have any! Thanks!

泪水, 最终也是滴了下来. 本来是想吓吓二姐, 因为她抢了我的日记, 但泪水就像水龙头的流不停. 可能是想发泄发泄吧! 我也不知道为什么要闷闷不乐. 作天, 他打来了, 他申请了马来西亚的号码, 为了放便我们传简讯. 本来说好十点通电话, 但他父母来了, 所以延迟了一个小时. 我们也谈了很久很久, 我也特地溜下去客厅, 因为我姨妈和表姐和我一起睡嘛! 就连一向迟睡的二姐也比我早睡! 我真了不起! 呵呵! 聊天聊到三更半夜还是头一次! 结果, 睡眠不足, 导致整天都迷迷糊糊的. OMG! 他真的是模特儿耶! 演戏只是他的副业. 如过了解我的人, 应该会知道我还蛮讨厌别人抽烟的. 可是, 他吸烟的! 可是我当时的反应还 OK 耶! 奇怪! 他还开玩笑说如果要他戒烟, 就 24 小时在他身旁, 因为他不会在我面前抽. =.= 好啦, 其实还蛮窝心的. 到最后他还唱歌耶! 好-好-听! 我在发花痴了. 其实我们聊的话题都很幼稚, 很无聊. 哈哈!

P/S: 你放心啦, 你生日的惊喜绝对不会是我去那边的, 虽然听起来那边还蛮好玩, 可是学业比较重要嘛! ( 假正经! )

我说过, 不知道有时会比知道还来得好. 很不幸的, 真的让我知道了一些我不该知道的事. 难道一切都只是个假象? 或着是有苦衷? 我不知道. 我只知道, 我看到那结果的反应只有一个! 上当了! 该摊出来大家说清楚? 还是假装什么是都没发生?

Didn't expect mummy to come home that fast, thank god I'm not doing anything bad! :] Watch Bambi and Bambi II because it's too boring at home! Dad came home quite early and we have a simple dinner. And daddy told me that he bought a car and guess what's the number plate? My initials! WSC = Wei Seine, Chen. Wakaka~~. Jeseleine and Jocelyn, don't be jealous! Feel so proud, hehehe *perasan*. Then the numbers is the same as my mum's car. My Puggy dear manage to walk 1 1/2 rounds of the garden terrace without any trouble! Good job, dear! But she came home panting and straight away go to her den and drink water, but she enjoyed the swing! Should let her walk more so she will be too tired for out toes. There's a dinner on 20/12 and I can't go. Damn, who ask me to enroll for the camp? Argh, bad timing. Daddy say maybe we're having steamboat on Christmas night instead of having steak. Well, as long is home made by my mum, anything will do!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CHEW MENG JIUN!

Today is his birthday, so happy birthday once more!! Yesterday, no, I mean this morning, I slept around 1 a.m ++? I can't sleep well! Yiks! Too happy, too energetic! Sheen Yeen. thanks for all your caring, you're not "luo sou", I will remeber what you say last night! =D Remember ah, must help me oo! Wakaka~~

Puggy is sleeping now, my mum is out to gym, Jes is out for work, home alone again. But I prefer to be alone at home at night! Keke.... Gotta go prepare lunch, blog later!

P/S: Thanks again, woo woo!

终于, 我等到了!我没想歪, 也没想太多. 一切都是对的!之前的疑虑全没了! 我今天最开心了. 妹妹啊, 你只是知道一些罢了哦, 还有很多很多, 我都不会告诉别人, 除了我自己! 开心开心! 今天是值得我纪念的一个好日子! 可是, 我还很不了解他, 还有太多事情是我不知道的. 其实, 有时后, 不知道比知道还来得好. 知道太多不该知道的事, 是会很痛苦的! 好的, 不开心的统统忘掉! 从此, 只记得开心的事!

I've realize that I'm changing. Not the outside me, is the inside me. I feel changes, changes that are not good. It may be good for now, but I'm sure I'll regret when I'm older. But what can I do? I know that's wrong, but why must I still do that? Is it because I want some thrill? I don't think so. I know it's wrong but I still plunge my head in it. I can't stop myself. Is it just a dream? Or is it real? Is this just a lie? Or is this real? I don't know. If it's a dream, never let me wake up again. If it's a lie, continue lying, I won't mind. I know I'm just curious about that, should I do that and let myself regret for life by listening to those words? Or ignore those words and continue to live like this? Options, decisions, I don't know. I just want to have a simple life, that's all. Why must I make it so complicated? I won't stop now, because I can't. I know that's not a good reason, but it is. I'm just convincing myself, but am I convincing them? How would I explain later? To the others? I'm not willing to face it. I'm not that strong. Let the time prove it all.