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I've realize that I'm changing. Not the outside me, is the inside me. I feel changes, changes that are not good. It may be good for now, but I'm sure I'll regret when I'm older. But what can I do? I know that's wrong, but why must I still do that? Is it because I want some thrill? I don't think so. I know it's wrong but I still plunge my head in it. I can't stop myself. Is it just a dream? Or is it real? Is this just a lie? Or is this real? I don't know. If it's a dream, never let me wake up again. If it's a lie, continue lying, I won't mind. I know I'm just curious about that, should I do that and let myself regret for life by listening to those words? Or ignore those words and continue to live like this? Options, decisions, I don't know. I just want to have a simple life, that's all. Why must I make it so complicated? I won't stop now, because I can't. I know that's not a good reason, but it is. I'm just convincing myself, but am I convincing them? How would I explain later? To the others? I'm not willing to face it. I'm not that strong. Let the time prove it all.