Well, I guess I predicted wrongly. Way wrong. I thought it'll come out fun, but I guess I'm wrong. It came out dissapointing. We get dissapointed every single year, or should I say it's just me that got dissapointed? Yes, I want positions because it contains lots of marks, and I do understand it is important for our big and final year next year, and it is also important for applying scholarship, which is likely what my parents would want to, because it's obvious that they don't have the ability to sponsor me to go Australia without any help from anyone. My dad is gonna retire in 3 years time and whose money are we going to use to pay for my fees? Jo? What if she starts a family of her own? She will have commitment of her own and she'll need to use the money for herself as well as her newly-formed family. I'm not a bright student for the scholarship, but no-harm trying and working hard to be a bright student right? I have time till next year to prove that I'm capable of doing it.
Sometimes it feels like shit when you work hard for the whole year and you get nothing. But then it feels far more worse when you were promised to be given something, and you end up with nothing too. Either they forgot what they have promised you, or they found it unnecessary. Well, life is always unfair and no one says it is fair. Guess we'll need to bear with it for another year. But I'm sure I'll get super duper pissed if the same thing happened next year. And all we get is lame excuses.
I'm not in the mood to do my Australia trip post and my dad is bugging me to do it. He's far more concerned about my readers than I am. Because deep inside, I know no one's read it. So why bother? This is just a page to express myself, or shall I post it as well for a memory, but most likely I'll abandon this page sometime later.
Anyway, if anybody reads this, thank you for your time to read my complaints and thank you for bearing with all the nonsense and craps on top.
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