Dont want to close my eyes
I dont want to fall asleep
Cause Id miss you baby
And I dont want to miss a thing
Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
Id still miss you baby
And I dont want to miss a thing


I still miss you, you know? Chatting with Mei Mei really bring back my memories.

Dad's right. Never let emotion control you. You should control your own emotions. But at least it's better than no feelings, right? I'm never like this before. Sometimes, I really wish I'd never meet you, cause thinking of you bring back those happy moments. And I don't wanna remember those happy moments. I'm not good in saying goodbyes~ And I never want to learn how to say goodbye. Like what mei mei said, it's better to let go, bt it's difficult to let go when you're not ready yet. Ignore my grammer mistakes, please! I'm not in the mood to correct it. =(

ELo, peeps! I'm finally back blooging. I feel wierd, for not blogging for such a long time. Haha, because for the past 2 months, I blog almost everyday, never let it empty more than 3 days. And exam is officially over! ^_^ I didn't really study well for this test, although some subject is quite easy. I'm really going to be a dead meat when teacher pass back our Geo, Sej, Maths paper. Well, I got to know my Science marks, not to say good nor bad, at least I'd improve from last year. But this time the paper was very easy. So I don't know what to think of myself. Lazy? Absolutely =)

Maybe I had too much time by myself, I'm starting to think of nonsense. Real nonsense. Our life seems to be quite short. Correction, not quite, is IS. OUR LIFE IS SHORT! You see, we graduate our high school life on 17 years old, then maybe get marry on 27-30? Then we're expected to seek for our soul-mate in that period. Is the time really enough for us? Then we'll spend more than 30 years doing our things together with our partner, sceduled, which is quite boring.

And think of this, in that period of time, how many relationships can we have? 2-3? Long-lasting or short relationships? I know I'm being extremly lame here, but how do we choose our future-husband from just those relationships? Or we change our boyfriends like how we change our clothes? Well, maybe I'll have none. Anything can happen, right?

And so, I really think that my life now is unthrilling. Sleep before 10.30pm, wake up on 6am, go to school, back from school, have my lunch, sleep/do hw/watch tv/surf the net, then go for a bath, then dinner, then sleep again. You see what I mean? I feel so meaningless, so so so unimportant. I want something exciting in my life, but I don't know what. I know I'm short of something, but I don't know what too. =(

I really envy those who had someone with them. But why not me? Feeling extremly lonely nowdays, everytime when I'm alone in my bedroom, only sotbear and my radio with me, I always had a urge to cry out loud. As usual, I don't know why I feel like this, but I feel real empty inside.

Things comes and go, but will our soul-mate/true-love walk past us a few times but we didn't even realise. This kind of ideas freak me out. What if I'll live alone when I'm old? What if I'll marry a guy that I don't love? What if the guy I married had a mistress hidden? Sometimes reading too much novel can make you freak out. When they are happy ending, you won't believe them; but it's not-so-perfect ending, you tense to believe the story.

I'm really scared about my future, my studies and etc. But what can we do? Sit and wait? Days passed and I feel nothing. I really feel like crying out loud now. I need a shoulder to cry on. I just need to cry everything out. Cry about something that I don't even know.

Well, I do know what I can cry on now. It's 7.41pm now, and I need to wait for my aunt and dad to finish bathing ( which they can do that earlier when I'm at Kumon), and then only go out for dinner. T_T I'm starving! But if I eat tit-bits now, I can't eat my dinner later on. Eat my dinner and less than 2 hours, I'll be in bed sleeping. =( Very unhealthy living.

Best wishes to myself for (_____) . Heehee, I don't know what to put. And also best wishes to everyone else. Bless you all!

P.S> Happie Birthday Elaine! ^_^