I should know that this would happen someday.

I mean, it's part of the process right?

But I still wish you never tell me.

I'm still here waiting and hoping and there you are, starting a new life.

Actually, there's no one to blame, but me.

I let the chance slip through my fingers.

You gave me a chance before, but I didn't grip it firm enough.

There's no second-chance anymore.

Anyway, congratulations!


Van just told me that they are going to organize a bbq party for like celebration for taking their PMR results. >.< I'm gonna miss it. How can the party be successful without the hyper "chicken" right? Haha

Going to polish my nails pink now. I don't care whether Jes will still say I'm a pontianak anymore, because, Jo is having pink nails too! So everyone will know we're sisters when we arrived at Australia. Muahaha~

SihumChen a.k.a Mr.Weather Forecast said that it's gonna be cooler when we reach melbourne but in adelaide? Still as hot as oven. OMG! I'm gonna be a big fat roast turkey then?

I feel empty out if the sudden. I should use to the feeling by now, But I guess I'm wrong.
I just don't know what's going on in my head right now. I'm confused. I really am. Should I like bang my head to the wall and maybe I'll wake up after that.

I'm just so pissed off and now the laptop don't even work right. It spent 30 freaking minutes just so start the front page. Just don't know what's going on lately. Grrr~

Oh ya, and I just waste my precious time watching Jennifer's Body. SO what there's a "hottie" in the movie? It's boring anyway, and left me with question marks after I watched it. Such a total waste of my time and money.

*You want me to choose on which laptopy I want that cost less than RM2000. And I choosed my mini pink Vaio laptop and now you say don't, because it seems that the Hp mini 110 is having a promotion now and it's cheaper than the mini pink vaio laptop. Duh~ Then why bother to ask me choose then? Why bother to ask? SO what now? Reducing the price from RM2000 to RM1500? Pissed pissed pissed~ And somemore you joke about sticking a pink sticker on the hp laptop and spray the word vaio word on it. Haha, it's funny. -.-*


Received a very early christmas gift from SihumChen and see, it wrote there"Special Little Girl" and I'm his special little girl and sotbear is MY special little girl. Lolx

Random thoughts : Anyone went to Pavillion to see the christmas decos yet? I just found out that the all of the raindeers have testicles but no penis. So why bother to do the testicles and leave out the penis? And the screws on the tummy looks like nipples.

Not going to blog anymore until next year. So miss me ya? Working my head off for the cross-stich and I'm proud to say, I'm almost finished!! Packing, packing and packing. Damn, do I need to bring so much stuffs? I mean I'm like packing every single day but everyday I have something new to stuff in my luggage bag. We're reaching at melbourne at night time so no sight-seeing at the airplane. Boo~ Wonder what's gonna happen to my arse and bladder for the 8 hours? Hmm~

Elaine told me that she usually comes to my blog and skip my posts because I have too much words. So now I shall post pictures, instead of words! :D But still, I prefer writing than posting pictures. Maybe I need to like post a picture for every post? Hmm~
















NO tongue V.S GOT tongue

Which one is better or cuter? Comments comments...



This is how she usually sleeps when my mum went up. She'll stay at the staircase for my mum to come down. Look at how she stabilize herself! :D


And this is how she'll do when we scolded her. She'll just hide herself in the blanket. Sooooo cute!


Not going to Kota Permai ever! Dramas going on for the whole morning. Wanna know what happened? Not going to blog it out because I just type the whole incident to Elaine in the aftenoon in MSN. View's Vivien's blog then to understand the whole situation! : D

Went to MamaKandar for lunch with Twins,EeCheng,Vivien and ShienYang. And whole day day-dreaming at home.

Keep arguing with Elaine at MSN > Whether Malaysia got PKM or not.
Lame topic right? : D I even asked Vanessa! I don't remember those Sejarah anymore. :P
And I even asked Vanessa whether the Chin Peng guy is still alive or not.
I can't believe I just asked the most stupidest question ever! >.<

18th December
> I'm going to Australia
> Elaine going to Thailand
> Twins going to Singapore

Such a coincedence, right?

Vivien is going to China tomorrow. I bet I'll miss her loads as usual. : (
Anyway, have a nice trip there and remember to buy souveniers back! :P

Had breakfast at McD with ChiauChen, EeCheng and Twins. Chit-chat until 12 and parents and I went all the Ampang to retrieve my mp3. After a long time of searching only my mum found my mp3, and the condition is......

BAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It was badly scratched and stuffs like that. Grr~

And then on our way home the traffic was soooooooooooo bad due to the rain and it's flooding somemore. Went home after 2 hours ++ in the car. My bladders are gonna burst anytime if we're stuck in the jam for longer period.

Anyway, I'm still pissed that my mp3 is in such bad condition. She really hid it real good. We need to take everything out and search every corner for my mp3.

Guess I retrieve back everything that's mine?

Went for a ride in the noon for my lunch. Imagine cycling under the hot sun around 2 something!
After lunch, went to my secret favorite spot and sit there and enjoy the nice view of KLCC. Take note, there's a abandon flyover over me so it's very very very cooling. I always cycle there whenever I head over to my grandpa's place. The place has a very comfy feeling and I feel very secure there. So far no one found out my secret spot! Happy happy~

It's weird whenever Jeff asked me over to his house. Because there's always awkward silence between he and me whenever I go over to his place. Like that time he called me over to his place to pass a rubix cube to Elaine, I went there and he said he lost it. And there's the
A-W-K-W-A-R-D S-I-L-E-N-C-E
between us. What topic do you expect to chat in front of a half naked boy? And yes, after ages, he called again and asked me whether I'm free to head over to his house or not. And I rejected because I'm just so not in the mood after all the drama happened in my house.

Going Pavillion tomorrow just for the Christmas decorations. My grandpa just LOVES the christmas decoration so mommy decide to bring him to Pavillion. Why doesn't the christmas mood affect me and make me happy?

Went to Bukit Tinggi Jaya Jusco yesterday for shopping.

I HATE sales!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh my, the crowd is unbelieveble! Actually our main plan is to shop for my school uniform, and I found it funny, because the sales doesn't include school stuffs, so why go there and fight with the crowd where you can go another day and there's less people?

And the worst thing is we ended up buying loads of stuffs, worth around RM400?! OMG! And 99% of the stuffs is mine. Only one of the blouse is Jes's. Went there and buy school uniform, then my mum saw some blouses, and start calling me to try, and then start buying stuffs already. SO ended up buy buy buy pay pay pay the bill came up to be RM400?! Oops, sure kena lectured by daddy~

Those people are crazy. There's happy hours, different hour on different stocks, and when they come to ladies handbags, those females customer is crazy! They grab like it's F.O.C! They just push you away and grab the bag they think is good! The conclusion is, when you shop, try wearing high heels, so when somebody wanna elbow you, you step on their feet and make sure they wail out in pain! Hmph~

Played PS2 with my sister, and I keep defeating her in Tekken. Muahahaha~
Because I'm too pissed so I keep taking my apponent as "her face" and hit hit hit kick kick kick her until she dies!!! : D

I always win her in Tekken anyway, so it doesn't make any difference. Suprisingly, I even defeat her in racing games! Oh dear, I'm just so proud of myself. :) You should see how I crash my car and how I steer my car. Maybe my dad will think twice when I go have my car license.

Vivien is back from Japan! Wee~~~ And she say she miss me too! :D

It's officially a year now.

And I miss you, tons.

I miss your voice.

I miss your singing.

I miss your sweet talks.

I miss the way you laugh.

I miss the way we use to chat from midnight till dawn. *Yes, I know it's insane*

I miss the conversations we use to have.

And yes, baby angel gone wild.

I just miss everything that has connection to you, the time we had together.

I know I'm plain stupid to remember all this.

And I do understand that promises are said to be broken.

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

[2 December 2009]
December is suppose to be a happy month. But for me? It's complicated. I'm moody enough during the month of December, and now you wanna me to suffer more?

First, you took my pendrive and deleted all the files there.
Then, you took my earphone.
And now, you took my mp3.
What's next? I really can't imagine.

I spent my whole day searching for my mp3 in my room. I know exactly I put my things, and I remember I saw it there. Don't tell me that it vanish itself as if it has magic? I asked you nicely in the afternoon and you show me your shit-face.

So I waited for my mom and her mom to come back, and I told her that my mp3 is missing. So her mum asked for her bag and she keep saying that it's not with her and raise her voice. So what if you raise your voice? It isn't in her bag, and her mom asked her again, nicely. And she show her shit-face again say she didn't took it. So my mum confronted her and you know what she say? She says that everytime we lost something, we blame her for it. Hello? Everytime we lost something, guess where we found those stuffs? In her hands! She raise her voice and say we weren't being fair with her because we always blame her when we lose our stuffs. And guess what? My mp3 is really in her hands! And guess where she left it? In my grandpa's place!

I asked her why she did that? And why she didn't return it to me when she give me back my pendrive and earphone. She say she wanna borrow my mp3 and listen to the songs in it. It's just plain rubbish! If you wanna borrow, can't you ask? And if you really plan to borrow, why left it there and not returning it to me? She just kept quiet and keep crying. And she didn't plan to admit it at first, until her mom recalled that she saw my mp3 when they search her bag for my pendrive and she say that she gave it back to her friend already. C'mon la, give a better excuse, okay? All your friends is at Sandakan and you have no friends in K.L!

You better pray hard that my mp3 is still at my grandpa's place and my granpa didn't threw it away or whatever shit reasons! That mp3 is my present when I scored straight A's for my UPSR. And that is a meaningful present from my dad to me! Even if you really buy back the exact same model and colour to me, but the meaning of the present is never the same!

You know what? It hurts, it really does.

Listening to Micheal Learns To Rock's songs is really soothing. Soothing in what manner? Which is tears dropping manner. And how does it sooth? I don't know. It's just the feeling. Damn, I just hate it.

I shouldn't have done all this, the truths hurts. And I can't stop myself from asking furthur, because I really wanna know, what is in your mind all this while. And the answer I got is hurtful. How I wish all of this is just a stupid, saddening dream.

And how pathetic that I can't stop myself from looking back to the past, and how silly I am to miss it.

Conclusion : I'm stupid. Vivien, I need you now!!! : (