Maybe I should just accept the fact that you're perfect but we're not
I'm a total idiot to believe what you told me last night. I should have guess that this ending will eventually pop out. Nevermind, it just gave me the chance to evaluate myself once more and see where should I start improving in and when I shouldn't listen to you words.
Guess what? I'll never ever believe a word you say again. It's just because I don't wanna get fooled by you again. Comgratulations to you, you really did fooled me, and I know it's karma.
Saturday, February 27, 2010
This post is for YOU, YOU and YOU!!!
*You can say I'm jealous or whatsoever but I don't care!*
Do you realize how many people are unhappy because of you?
I dare not say I'm perfect because no one is in this society or in this world. But to others, which are teachers and your mini fans, you are so perfect in so many aspects! You're smart, you're talented at dancing, you're pretty, you're so elegant, so missy, you're so sweet to always help teacher out, you're so kind-hearted to help defend others, oh-you're-so-perfect! You are always in the center of attention whereas we are just the shadow, why is that so? Because we're not perfect, but you are. We hate it when you always help us agree on something, what if we can't make it? People will just think that : " Aiyer, promised someone already then now you break the promise" Where you can stand up and help that person as much as you want!
You only listen to what you said and not what we said. Everything we say or do is wrong while yours is always correct? Yesterday is a very good example to all of the facts, and the day before yesterday too. You just scolded at us suddenly for helping us buy drinks and foods, but when teacher ask you to help when it's raining? You agree without hesitation with a BIG smile on your face. Oh, when you came back dripping wet, you just ask us for shirts where you just scolded us, remember? The worst thing is, you can't even ask yourself where you're just sitting beside me. You need to ask your friend to ask me. How pathetic.
During singing practice, until now, you guys keep changing the songs and we keep pur mouth shut. Although we practice the songs yesterday already, you still change it last minute. Like what? We have the time of the universe to accompany you to keep practice and practice? Sorry lo, you have the time, but I don't! You keep practicing when other members is gone, and that's okay. But when you start to change the pitching here and there, then it's very not right! Have you thought of other members that are not there? Performance is on monday and do you think that you have the time to tell them what you've change and all those? People tried telling you that you sang the wrong lyrics but you don't give a damn about it, but when they leave, you corrected back your lyrics and say that if we sing neither one also nevermind, because no one can hear the slight difference. Hello? You're the one who's been talking, not us. All we need to do is listen to your changes and your orders.
Did you enjoyed yourselves last night performing to others in your mini concert? Dancing and singing in the center of attention is no problem to you. You said you'll fetch me back around 10 because my mum doesn't know the way but you were too engrossed in the performance that you ask me to call my mum and lied to her that you have no transport yourself too! So fine, I didn't call my mum, and I'm not that stupid to do so. Maybe your mom will say oh, it's okay to come home later but not MINE! So at last, teacher fetch me home while you enjoy your mini concert.
About one of the member quitting the singing performance, you did not ask yourself why she quit it but all you do is blame her.
"Aiya, nevermind one lar, she always like that one"
Is that all you can say?
There were quite a few of the seniors in the party at teacher's house and you keep inviting them to the singing performance. Have you ask the other members? You keep saying the more the merrier, but by then you will neglect you old friends and focus on your newly found friend. It's normal, because since day 1, you're always better to your not-so-close friends but not with your close ones. Why is that so? Ask them la, their way of thinking is way different from us.
One of my friend ask me to 放开点, but I'm so sorry to say that I can't make it. And I'm sure that no one can if they continue to treat us like that. They only have themselves in their eyes, they're too goog to hang out with us. They should hang out with the class one people instead of us. They belong up the stage but we belong to the audience. We're in two different world and this world can never be together.
*You can say I'm jealous or whatsoever but I don't care!*
Do you realize how many people are unhappy because of you?
I dare not say I'm perfect because no one is in this society or in this world. But to others, which are teachers and your mini fans, you are so perfect in so many aspects! You're smart, you're talented at dancing, you're pretty, you're so elegant, so missy, you're so sweet to always help teacher out, you're so kind-hearted to help defend others, oh-you're-so-perfect! You are always in the center of attention whereas we are just the shadow, why is that so? Because we're not perfect, but you are. We hate it when you always help us agree on something, what if we can't make it? People will just think that : " Aiyer, promised someone already then now you break the promise" Where you can stand up and help that person as much as you want!
You only listen to what you said and not what we said. Everything we say or do is wrong while yours is always correct? Yesterday is a very good example to all of the facts, and the day before yesterday too. You just scolded at us suddenly for helping us buy drinks and foods, but when teacher ask you to help when it's raining? You agree without hesitation with a BIG smile on your face. Oh, when you came back dripping wet, you just ask us for shirts where you just scolded us, remember? The worst thing is, you can't even ask yourself where you're just sitting beside me. You need to ask your friend to ask me. How pathetic.
During singing practice, until now, you guys keep changing the songs and we keep pur mouth shut. Although we practice the songs yesterday already, you still change it last minute. Like what? We have the time of the universe to accompany you to keep practice and practice? Sorry lo, you have the time, but I don't! You keep practicing when other members is gone, and that's okay. But when you start to change the pitching here and there, then it's very not right! Have you thought of other members that are not there? Performance is on monday and do you think that you have the time to tell them what you've change and all those? People tried telling you that you sang the wrong lyrics but you don't give a damn about it, but when they leave, you corrected back your lyrics and say that if we sing neither one also nevermind, because no one can hear the slight difference. Hello? You're the one who's been talking, not us. All we need to do is listen to your changes and your orders.
Did you enjoyed yourselves last night performing to others in your mini concert? Dancing and singing in the center of attention is no problem to you. You said you'll fetch me back around 10 because my mum doesn't know the way but you were too engrossed in the performance that you ask me to call my mum and lied to her that you have no transport yourself too! So fine, I didn't call my mum, and I'm not that stupid to do so. Maybe your mom will say oh, it's okay to come home later but not MINE! So at last, teacher fetch me home while you enjoy your mini concert.
About one of the member quitting the singing performance, you did not ask yourself why she quit it but all you do is blame her.
"Aiya, nevermind one lar, she always like that one"
Is that all you can say?
There were quite a few of the seniors in the party at teacher's house and you keep inviting them to the singing performance. Have you ask the other members? You keep saying the more the merrier, but by then you will neglect you old friends and focus on your newly found friend. It's normal, because since day 1, you're always better to your not-so-close friends but not with your close ones. Why is that so? Ask them la, their way of thinking is way different from us.
One of my friend ask me to 放开点, but I'm so sorry to say that I can't make it. And I'm sure that no one can if they continue to treat us like that. They only have themselves in their eyes, they're too goog to hang out with us. They should hang out with the class one people instead of us. They belong up the stage but we belong to the audience. We're in two different world and this world can never be together.
Friday, February 26, 2010
Sports day was yesterday and it was EXHAUSTING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
After days of praticing marching, our marching is still, urm, okay okay la~
Afterall, how do you expect us to so well when there's always people missing during practice? And I'm one of them~ xD So so so so so sorry, because they keep having practice on monday and tuesday where my tuition starts on 4.45pm and my transport comes on 3.30pm till 4pm. See?
SO, I woke up at around 4.30am and we were suppose to reach school by 6.20am and guess what time we left the school? Around 7 something touching 8am. OMG! And when we board the bus, all the seats were taken and we are suppose to stand all the way there!! Somemore the stupid pig keep glaring at me when I put my hand on the top of the head rest! Walau~ you expect me to stand still without holding anything as a support all the way to the stadium??
Ifaint didn't faint half fainted but half didn't! xD
Actually I was feeling quite okay one lo, I keep wriggling my toes and keep wriggling my fingers and I even move slightly to the right and to the left and do some funny facial expressions to keep myself awake and I only wipe my sweat when the stupid sweat rolled down from I-dunno-where and it rolled in my eyes. Damn painful, you know? If you don't believe then try putting some diluted salt water in your eyes and you'll be half-blind by then. xD
I was enjoying myself listening to the Ketua Pengakaptalking giving orders to his mates. He was like :
EH, the three of you in front, stop moving!
Don't move your head!
Stand still!
Don't wipe your sweat!
and lots more.
Then suddenly there's a thud sound and one of the people marching in the blue team was "knock-out". Somemore the Ketua Pengawas ask his teammates not to look at the direction but I still look over and see the boy on the floor and some BBSM people helping him.
When the Ketua Polis took over and give his speech *actually he's just reading from a draft*, I started to feel dizzy and I finished sucking my cola sweet. I popped 3 in my mouth just before the marching start.
Then I heard the Ketua Pengakap say :"Whoever feels like painting, just take a deep breath"
So I just follow his instructions and take a deep, deep breath. BUT after that. I didn't feel better! The whole sight in front of me just went black like someone suddenly switch off the lights and I felt a pang of numbness at my fingertips. And I know what's going to happen next. So I quickly call Amalia which is just behind me but I think she can't hear me calling her or what. Everything is just black and all I know was somebody wrap her hands around me and steer me away. I can't see anything but I know where I was heading to. The tent!
I keep telling her I'm so sorry and I feel like I'm blind, walking in full darkness. I was brought to the tent and they gave me a chair to sit and rest and my head is still dizzy and heavy. They gave me a diluted 100 plus and when I start to see again, I saw more and more people were being brought to the tent until the tent is almost full!
I heard people commenting that the teachers are silly to let us stand still under the hot sun and listen to them talking craps. Somemore this year's event is longer than previous because we have people running one round of the track and light up the obor. Tsk tsk
When I came back and find my friends, the only ones I saw is Elaine and Yin Xuan, and I kept crying because I'm scared that they'll blame me because I heard that marks will be deducted when anyone faint and that means RM100 is for sure gone already. *Although also got one other person faint from Pandu Puteri la*
Then we went and watch the game and something happened in between. I'm still quite mad about it actually, but what's the use? They are like that since day 1 and nothing can be done. Just hope that sometimes people DO spot us as who we are but not as their friends or whatsoever. I'm sick of being just the shadow and on everything they come first before we do. They ARE the priority, not the pathetic us.
And still, I hope that the Indian guy who don't let us board the bus and pull my bag when I board th bus will fell down on his butt someday when he's going on the bus or get knock over by some huge massive lorry. He's such a pain. People is quietly queing to go up the bus and he just cut through us and pull my bag when I'm going up. Stupid bastard!
Rowena's party was fabulous! Will blog about it later. Gotta run to singing practice! :)
-Post written at Pn.Khaw's house when they are having chinese tuition. :)-
After days of praticing marching, our marching is still, urm, okay okay la~
Afterall, how do you expect us to so well when there's always people missing during practice? And I'm one of them~ xD So so so so so sorry, because they keep having practice on monday and tuesday where my tuition starts on 4.45pm and my transport comes on 3.30pm till 4pm. See?
SO, I woke up at around 4.30am and we were suppose to reach school by 6.20am and guess what time we left the school? Around 7 something touching 8am. OMG! And when we board the bus, all the seats were taken and we are suppose to stand all the way there!! Somemore the stupid pig keep glaring at me when I put my hand on the top of the head rest! Walau~ you expect me to stand still without holding anything as a support all the way to the stadium??
I
Actually I was feeling quite okay one lo, I keep wriggling my toes and keep wriggling my fingers and I even move slightly to the right and to the left and do some funny facial expressions to keep myself awake and I only wipe my sweat when the stupid sweat rolled down from I-dunno-where and it rolled in my eyes. Damn painful, you know? If you don't believe then try putting some diluted salt water in your eyes and you'll be half-blind by then. xD
I was enjoying myself listening to the Ketua Pengakap
EH, the three of you in front, stop moving!
Don't move your head!
Stand still!
Don't wipe your sweat!
and lots more.
Then suddenly there's a thud sound and one of the people marching in the blue team was "knock-out". Somemore the Ketua Pengawas ask his teammates not to look at the direction but I still look over and see the boy on the floor and some BBSM people helping him.
When the Ketua Polis took over and give his speech *actually he's just reading from a draft*, I started to feel dizzy and I finished sucking my cola sweet. I popped 3 in my mouth just before the marching start.
Then I heard the Ketua Pengakap say :"Whoever feels like painting, just take a deep breath"
So I just follow his instructions and take a deep, deep breath. BUT after that. I didn't feel better! The whole sight in front of me just went black like someone suddenly switch off the lights and I felt a pang of numbness at my fingertips. And I know what's going to happen next. So I quickly call Amalia which is just behind me but I think she can't hear me calling her or what. Everything is just black and all I know was somebody wrap her hands around me and steer me away. I can't see anything but I know where I was heading to. The tent!
I keep telling her I'm so sorry and I feel like I'm blind, walking in full darkness. I was brought to the tent and they gave me a chair to sit and rest and my head is still dizzy and heavy. They gave me a diluted 100 plus and when I start to see again, I saw more and more people were being brought to the tent until the tent is almost full!
I heard people commenting that the teachers are silly to let us stand still under the hot sun and listen to them talking craps. Somemore this year's event is longer than previous because we have people running one round of the track and light up the obor. Tsk tsk
When I came back and find my friends, the only ones I saw is Elaine and Yin Xuan, and I kept crying because I'm scared that they'll blame me because I heard that marks will be deducted when anyone faint and that means RM100 is for sure gone already. *Although also got one other person faint from Pandu Puteri la*
Then we went and watch the game and something happened in between. I'm still quite mad about it actually, but what's the use? They are like that since day 1 and nothing can be done. Just hope that sometimes people DO spot us as who we are but not as their friends or whatsoever. I'm sick of being just the shadow and on everything they come first before we do. They ARE the priority, not the pathetic us.
And still, I hope that the Indian guy who don't let us board the bus and pull my bag when I board th bus will fell down on his butt someday when he's going on the bus or get knock over by some huge massive lorry. He's such a pain. People is quietly queing to go up the bus and he just cut through us and pull my bag when I'm going up. Stupid bastard!
Rowena's party was fabulous! Will blog about it later. Gotta run to singing practice! :)
-Post written at Pn.Khaw's house when they are having chinese tuition. :)-
Friday, February 12, 2010
Okay, I totally didn't expect it to be in this situation.
*Names not mention =)*
Let's bring you back to last year. Last year, I happily shopped for a freaking cute and girlish magnetic clip with blingz on it for my accessory to the KKCF Fashion Show. I happily bring it there and I even borrowed it to the models to clip up their hair while they have their make up being put on. See? I borrowed them my precious clip which was bought less than a week ago. LESS THAN A WEEK! And by the time I reach my friend's house, I only remember that I left my clip with one of the model. I feel so depressed that time and I immediately called the model up, and she said she give it back to my friend already, and my friend didn't receive it. So I gave up! Imagine I lost my RM30 magnetic clip in less than a week! >.<
How can this be?? Where's my another ribbon tail? Did your dog nibble on it because it's starving?
And you could actually count how much blingz that is fall out from it's position. I know it isn't diamond or what, but hey, I pay 30 bucks for this clip you know? And I think it's quite pricey, but hey, I love the design and the blingz!!
Count correctly and you'll find out that there's 6 holes for the missing blingz!
To make things worst,
Oh my freaking god + lord!! What happen to my baby clip? It actually broke into 2!!!
T______T
Okay, you can definitely count the holes correctly and precisely here, because I purposely zoom it until it's unzoomable! You zoom too much the picture will become blurry mah~
Fine, I'll just take it as I never own that clip before, to make me feel better. And I know no way there's people good enough to compensate one more for me and I don't feel like buying another one more for myself anymore, unless someone but it for me la~
*Names not mention =)*
Let's bring you back to last year. Last year, I happily shopped for a freaking cute and girlish magnetic clip with blingz on it for my accessory to the KKCF Fashion Show. I happily bring it there and I even borrowed it to the models to clip up their hair while they have their make up being put on. See? I borrowed them my precious clip which was bought less than a week ago. LESS THAN A WEEK! And by the time I reach my friend's house, I only remember that I left my clip with one of the model. I feel so depressed that time and I immediately called the model up, and she said she give it back to my friend already, and my friend didn't receive it. So I gave up! Imagine I lost my RM30 magnetic clip in less than a week! >.<
How can this be?? Where's my another ribbon tail? Did your dog nibble on it because it's starving?
And you could actually count how much blingz that is fall out from it's position. I know it isn't diamond or what, but hey, I pay 30 bucks for this clip you know? And I think it's quite pricey, but hey, I love the design and the blingz!!
Count correctly and you'll find out that there's 6 holes for the missing blingz!
To make things worst,
Oh my freaking god + lord!! What happen to my baby clip? It actually broke into 2!!!
T______T
Okay, you can definitely count the holes correctly and precisely here, because I purposely zoom it until it's unzoomable! You zoom too much the picture will become blurry mah~
Fine, I'll just take it as I never own that clip before, to make me feel better. And I know no way there's people good enough to compensate one more for me and I don't feel like buying another one more for myself anymore, unless someone but it for me la~
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I feel like punching her, kicking her, scream at her, pull off her hairs and scratch her face. Bloody idiot! I totally disagree with what you say! Does wearing tie makes a person more discipline? Hell no! If it really does, then the whole world will be jail-free. Just make the person wear tie then gao-dim lo! I just totally can't get what's in your head. You can say I'm making a fuss for not dropping the topic because I really disagree with her. She did say lots more irrevelant stuffs that make me jumpy and edgy and I just ignore her by sleeping.
School make us to raise fund and we're not allowed to go house-to-house to collect me or shop-to-shop to collect money. Then? Pay all ourself? We need to ask from relatives and friends instead of walking down the street to beg for money. This totally make no difference to the school children. You want to use the money to upgrade facilities in the canteen and other stuffs, but do you know what's more important than that? Fix the bloosy smelly toilet and get someone to build in doors WITH LOCKS!
School make us to raise fund and we're not allowed to go house-to-house to collect me or shop-to-shop to collect money. Then? Pay all ourself? We need to ask from relatives and friends instead of walking down the street to beg for money. This totally make no difference to the school children. You want to use the money to upgrade facilities in the canteen and other stuffs, but do you know what's more important than that? Fix the bloosy smelly toilet and get someone to build in doors WITH LOCKS!
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Marching practice today from 1 till 3.30pm. My friends kept worrying about me fainting suddenly. Anyhow, I passed, right? I didn't feel dizzy at all! Everytime when the commander ask us to go under the sun, I'll pop a sweet in my mouth and every now and then I'll suck the sweet to get some glucose. See, I'm a smart girl right?
Exam is on the first week of March and no joke, I'm nervous! Anyway, I'll enjoy my Chinese New Year break first then only I worry about my exams! ^_^
Damn those teachers who give us homeworks for Chinese New Year break!
Exam is on the first week of March and no joke, I'm nervous! Anyway, I'll enjoy my Chinese New Year break first then only I worry about my exams! ^_^
Damn those teachers who give us homeworks for Chinese New Year break!
Friday, February 5, 2010
Sorry for being such a pain and so sorry for giving you guys so much problem. I'm really and truly sorry. I didn't mean it for that way to happen. I just didn't. I didn't think that much when I wrote that and I'm sorry that it caused trouble for you guys.
I'm joining marching and yes, I won't faint again, so don't worry, okay? Actually, I wanna join running and tug-of-war too, but no one came and ask for names so I'll just forget about it. I kinda like promised my dear mei mei that I won't faint but we can't stop if I really do right? It's not fun when you hit your head like the way I do. It's so freaking pain and I still remember that I didn't cry until my mum turned up in the clinic. Tears kept rushing out when I saw my mum. It's really pain when the doctor is stiching my head because you can't inject anything in your head to numb it because your head is hard and you can't poke the needle in. So imagine throughout the stiching it's like freaking pain and you can feel how the needle is being pushed in and pull out and you can even feel the string pulling back your skin together although you can't see it. I know it's disgusting but it's true. I can even remember the thud sound when I fell on the floor. That sound gives me the creep right now. So this year I'm going and marching and I'm not going to faint!
Going to school tomorrow. See, I'm a good girl right? Then I'm going to marching practice after school and what's next? P~A~R~T~Y!! =D Sooooo looking forward to tomorrow!
I'm joining marching and yes, I won't faint again, so don't worry, okay? Actually, I wanna join running and tug-of-war too, but no one came and ask for names so I'll just forget about it. I kinda like promised my dear mei mei that I won't faint but we can't stop if I really do right? It's not fun when you hit your head like the way I do. It's so freaking pain and I still remember that I didn't cry until my mum turned up in the clinic. Tears kept rushing out when I saw my mum. It's really pain when the doctor is stiching my head because you can't inject anything in your head to numb it because your head is hard and you can't poke the needle in. So imagine throughout the stiching it's like freaking pain and you can feel how the needle is being pushed in and pull out and you can even feel the string pulling back your skin together although you can't see it. I know it's disgusting but it's true. I can even remember the thud sound when I fell on the floor. That sound gives me the creep right now. So this year I'm going and marching and I'm not going to faint!
Going to school tomorrow. See, I'm a good girl right? Then I'm going to marching practice after school and what's next? P~A~R~T~Y!! =D Sooooo looking forward to tomorrow!
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